i sit here and can only look back on what i thought we could have had. you tell me you love me and yet you can't show me. what are your words? they are nothing. you say you want the rest of your life with me but your always telling me how you love someone elese. you say all the things you hate about your ex and why you'd never go back when i am almost a carbin copy of her. you know that and you still push and push and PUSH. you do stupid shit to me that is the furthest from love and all you can say is just kidding.if you loved me so much you would be with me just me and no one elese could ever possibly do it for you, but yet, your looking to everyone elese.am i not supose to take it to offense? the only time you ever say i love and look like you really mean it you are drunk, the only time you want to love me you are drunk! what is so wrong with me? i am not even close to enough for you. i give and give till theres nothing left to give and then i still try. you take and take, and always want more. i cant do this anymore, i am at my wits end. i am tring so hard to keep myself together and yet....im just falling apart.