i want to believe in something. i know theres more out there then this - this that i set myself up for. theres more then the bad and yet somehow although i never seen it i still believe in it. i have had people be inlove me, or at least think they were in the past and it didnt work.. why? i have had people i would have died for and that didnt work either. Maybe its me. i dont know. maybe im just hopeless lol. i just feel so un content and all i have wanted to do for a while now is scream or cry or something and somehow i cant do that either. is it just me - SERIOUSLY? ive had all i can take and i dont know why.i break every day over and over agin like this is some kind of hell that im living.i cant get out of it. i cant talk to anyone. i have no support. i feel alone and i cant stand the sound and sight of myself lately. i dont know whats wrong with me and i dont want to know. some part of me doesnt want to fix it, and anthor does. Maybe im not broken at all as i like to think. Maybe im just normal, and too weak to put up with it. Maybe i should just stop putting up with it. i should stop putting up with it forever.