I'm putting together some influences ya. I'm pretty gay. But I just want to know what it feels like to be Peaches Geldof for once. Or late 90's Billie Piper. You know? No? No, neither do I. I think I was happiest in 2007, at least that's what I was thinking at about 5:30am. That's the time I used to get up? Now it's the time this insomniac falls asleep. I had to turn off my alarm because I hadn't even fallen asleep yet. I'm so screwed up. I think that period of late 2007 particularly was the time I started changing the most... but maybe in a good way? I have such fond, fond memories of it! Of carrying my discman around and listening to Saint Simon (Shins, God bless them... Simon has been getting into them recently, he told me so the other day. Yeah yeah I know). Of housesitting with Lawra in the manch. Song 4 Mutya. I think maybe it's because I was listening to all that music that I was getting very nostalgic... for those people, those times, when I don't remember there being any sadness particularly. When I slept more. When I was more innocent, I suppose, yet at the same time wiser than my peers, doing things that they are only doing now. But then again, I am now doing things that some did years before... I don't really know. I can't put a proper finger on it! But... drawing class with Tom. And my friendship with Anne & Jess & Val, early '07 styles before I became paranoid that Anne hated me. Which now I don't care about. I know I get over certain things, but then I get sad that I have? I don't want to lose things! I don't want to lose the fact that I care. That time Emma put a sticker on my back and Anthony Smith became sticker guy. And I fell in love so easily. I was so in love with every boy I knew back then. I don't know. Not too long ago, I would have said that 2008 was my most fantastic year. It was a year of branching out, great change... but I really am beginning to love who I was in 2007. '08 was a blur. Crazy times, and who doesn't love that? But enough is enough, and I was so cute, fresh, doe-eyed. Alina just signed in. Alina! I haven't even properly spoken to her since '07! I made all these friends... I just wish I hadn't made such a messy transition to '08, so I could still see these people and be friends with them. Because I miss them. And me.