here I am sitting at my computer, which i did most of the day, stupid stomach was being a beach, Anyways the doctor just said I need Physiotherapy for my ankle and my knee. Ugh it sucks cuz its all on one leg too, Oh well. On the 19th im gunna be going over to Ashleys im excited, and im staying there untill the 24th she is so much fun, Love you gurl. Anyways I didnt get to go tanning like i wanted to my stomach..dammit stupid things in life eh?? But I cant believe it, I wore a dress today and i didnt care but yet all i couldnt think about was Kev..cuz he was the one that told me to ware a dress, but oh well were friends and i should be happy. Ive never felt so sad when i was single b4 I guess ive never realized so much when i was single b4 either. I miss EVERYTHING and i mean everything, I know its been 3 years now??, i think. but i still cant get over the fact that I left dt. I loved that school that place and all of my friends I miss them all so much. I had a life there i did different things so often and everyone there made me smile. I had my fights and yet there were the guys that I would do almost anything for. And I lernt so much in that school I really loved it there and still would do anything to go back..I had this convo with a friend from there the only day and she said " I concore" to something i said and i said back " wow i havnt heard that in so long" and the next thing i knew is that she said " yeah thats cause you left" You know how bad that hurt?? wow, i mean it hurts to leave something u were really happy with when u never wanted to in the first place. I mean there i felt like a person when I could be me, there was days when i was sad and i didnt ACT happy just so others wouldnt see, I made the most best friends anyone could ever meet and man thoes gurls are some of the most prettest ones ever, and now there all gone, that whole life i had just dissapeard right infront of me over something I couldnt do nothing about. Im not saying that I hate everything now I mean I love it and everything I love everyone i've met and life is getting there. but Its just NOTHING like it was..I love you all now and dont get me wrong that your the awesomest people and everything Im just always having this feeling like something is missing and Im ALWAYS the one left out with noone to go to, i know i always half different people to go to but like b4 if I knew so many..I loved that school..I actually LIKED school then, now I just feel like normal...I dont like school just the people IN school. and I thank everyone that I have met and will soon meet later on in life for always being there and being a great friend for you have all helped me get through so much and I wish I had my old life just with everyone I know now and i wish i could just let go of the past and have everything like it was just without the old people, my old friends.. Billy