God, this might be my hardest entry yet. Wow! I hate hearing that things are wrong, but what do I expect? I mean, yeah, I know stuff doesn't come easy for everyone. After all, I should know better than anyone that. My family is broken, my heart's been broken, I suck at feelings, even though I try...I'm not the best friend a person could have, but I try. I know I'm not always there, but I try! God, I hate to know that Ashely is going thru so much stuff! I know its not like I can be like, "hey YOU! Stop! Dont do that!" but it hurts my heart to know that someone has to feel what I do. And someone just can't come out of it. Or bounce back, or whatever it is when you're in "denial" haha. I hate that word. What the hell are you denying?! UGH! But still, I wish I could stop her. I wish I could say something that would finally make a difference to someone. Like me just being able to say, "Hey, look. I'm here, always will be." Could make a difference! But I know I can't. I just pray, that one day, I can be that one person that lights someone's whole day..whole life up. But until that day, all I can do is hang back, and just relax. What Can I expect? More than what is expected of me? Maybe it's my "Denial" kicking in! I guess that'll be the name of this then. Denial and Ashely B! Cool beans! I love it! Hey Hun..look! The first entry with your name in it! Don't you just love it?!