New Diary: amayaaloaryn That's the best way to describe my mood. Sad. So, I found out, Spade really did say I was going to give him a blow job. Because Preston and Malcolm said it. At first, I believed him when he said Malcolm was lying b/c I wanted to. Preston, well, Preston has no reason to lie, and on top of that, he wouldn't lie to piss me off. He does that alone by himself. I've known Malcolm for so long. I should've believed him right off the back. Why didn't I? Why do I waste my time? So tired of my comfort zone. But I can't move with all these aszes around me. Oh well. I should go to his house, get him all hot n bothered, then leave. Just walk the hell out. It'd be nice, but, I'm not that way. Justin pissed me off by saying dont give him some, give me some. I want head. Christ. Doesn't ANYONE know me? It's always times like these that I feel myself alone. I should know better, but I don't. I never do. Why are people like that to me? Justin, for saying that, Malcolm for saying, you were gonna do it for real?? You know me better than that. You've known me for over 3 years. Have I yet?? And Spade for saying it. I don't care though. I don't care. Leave me be. Store at 3. Holla at cha girl,cuz all I can be, is me.--Lesha