I wrote this entry a few days ago, like Tuesday. It wouldn't save, but I hope it will now. So, thus, here it is: ...It's so cool that people name there bands after puppets who control rocks. POWER TO YOU! "Well if you wanted honesty, That's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, It's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, For photographs your boyfriend took For the last time take a good hard look. I'm not okay..." So, its Tuesday. Didn't make it to Springville day. I missed my Desy :(... but I guess it didn't really happen anyway so, schyea. Anywho, was watching S.N.S.S. last night. Learned somethings, as always *wink* So hmmm... I love the new TBS video. Adam, glorious as always... Oh crap. Don't wanna watch Avril. WHORE PICKS ON EVAN! EVAN! YOUR MY BOY! Whos she kidding. SHE HAS BEEN A SLUT SINCE THE DAY I MET HER... well I haven't met her. As you might have noticed, since shes still living MUAHAHAHAHAH. Oh, Evan, go back to Spinfire my dear. Trust me, that way you can get laid way more than touring with Avril singing her backup with lyrics about doing guys ;) "Oh why can't I be what you need? A new, improved version of me... But I am nothing so good. No I am nothing. Just bones. A lonley ghost burning down songs Of violence of love and of sorrow I beg for just one more tomorrow Where you'd hold me down, fold me in Deep, deep in the heart of your sin. I break in two over you. I break in two and each piece of me dies. Only you can give the breath of life..." Well, looks like I'm only gonna be in Maryland for a day. My Aunt Kimmy just found out shes pregnant again and isn't really up for company, so we're not gonna stay for too long probably. I'l just be there Saturday morning- Sunday, apparently. So much for my Travis stalking *tear* "When Kelly cries, The makeup runs from her eyes And spills the truth about how she feels inside. When Kelly screams, Its usually means that I'm not being me. Or she's not being her... But anyway. Three whole years fall on deaf ears. Are they snowflakes or solid tears?" Well. talk about mood swings. All of a sudden I fell really freakin shitty... wonder why? Well. I'm gonna go upstairs and listen to some music. I'll write back... eventually. "I love you. If you didn't know already You should have. Thought it'd be obvious. .But maybe it is. And you hate me just as much as I always knew you would. Just as much as they all do. Thanks for at least playing along Not crushing my spirit For... god knows how many times its happened before. Thanks for the decency. ...Thanks for the hope." My poem I wrote. It's stupid, but whatever. It's what I feel, and everything I feels stupid anyway...