Well. I gave the diary an upgrade. The background is Dan in my TEN shirt. Yes, mine is green. But still people. Feel the New Jersey love between me and the DT. I'd hit it. The top corner picture is Shawn in a dress. No further explination needed. And the header For you people who couldn't tell Is Rory and Jess from Gilmore Girls, and some "Run" lyrics thrown on there. I was gonna put up one with Anna from the OC and it says "Isn't she lovely?" And I swear to god. Anna has on the same dress as I got for homecoming. Well almost anyway. Except hers is red and mine is blue. Feel the bond. Feel itttttt. I just love the Jess/Rory one. And people mackin it. Because lord knows I'm not. So I skipped today. I didnt do any of my health project or my Geometry homework or... basically anything. So I decided instead of failing I would just skip. I needed a day off. Bad. So then I was in a pretty shitty mood this morning. Alright, ultra shitty. UBER SHITTY IF YOU WILL. So then I decided to wax my legs. Just to have some pain and something to disctract me from thinking. I dont cut people. I wax. Feel it. Feeeelll ittttt. Anyway. That thing hurts like a bitch. I did it twice on my leg and it hurt like a brother fucker, And didn't even take all the hair off. I mean what the hell is that. At least have the decency to remove the hair if you're gonna rip my skin off. And yesterday was Max's birthday. And I planned on being nice to him I did. I got him a present and everything. But then I dont know. I just felt like he got what he really wanted and he didn't need mine. So I kinda just avoided him for the rest of the day and then told him he was an ass. I apologized later. I can't stay mad at the kid. ...I'm so weak. Monday's my birthday. Fridays the bonfire. Saturday's homecoming. I've never been the bonfire. But if I freeze my ass off... well someone better keep me warm thats all Im saying. Oh. my dress. Dur. It's blue. And black. And its pretty. It's a gown. Goes down to my feet so I can just wear flip flops because I'm awesome like that. Me and Melissa and Brittany and Sue all picked it out. Of course after they all screamed YOUR TITS LOOK AMAZING IM SO JEALOUS throughout the whole store. That was a magical time. What to say what to say what to say. Oh and my dress expedition was my first trip to the Oakdale Mall. They have a Hot Topic. The guy there was really awesome. He's all "Have a good evening. SHIT- I MEAN AFTERNOON" I love salespeople. But anywho. At Hot Topic. I found my issue of AP with TBS on it that the bastards never sent me even though it was supposed to come a month ago. They just skipped it for some reason. I was like WHAT THE FUCK. ITS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH AND ITS GOT TBS ON THE COVER AND YOU DONT SEND IT?! DIE FUCKERS DIE! So I was gonna send $5 to the magazine company. And have them send me it. But then glorious little Hot Topic had it there for $3.95. Could have hugged that salesguy. So WHAT ELSE. Golly! ha great times. Man. Had something to say then I lost it. I'll just ramble on anyway until I remember. So Marissa wants me to have a little GET TOGETHER after homecoming. Her and Lynds might come over anyway. Like she thinks it would be fun to invite like Dan and Max and Cody or something like that. I think it would be too. I'm just not shore what the MOMS will think. Plus my dad will be home so he'll probably fall asleep on the couch upstairs. And I dont want the guys to have to sleep with my dads snoring. Even Kathleen can't handle it and she lives here. But like, I have a bed that can sleep three people and a futon that can sleep like three in my room alone. Plus a floor that can sleep like five. So its not like we couldn't fit. I just dont know if the mom will let us. I mean she'll let us hang out in there. But I dont know if she'll let us SLEEP in there. I dont know. I'll have to ponder some more. Running out of time though to decide. OH. And then at 4:30 this evening I have a docters appointment to get my stiches sliced out. OUGHT TO BE A FUN TIME. Full of laughs, Im sure. I found out an interesting little fact today. That little band Action, Action that everyones making such a big fuss about is one of my old bands. THEY JUST CHANGED THERE NAME. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! I mean shista. They were good before. I guess since they got all that techno/funk shit going on they wanted to change their name. Oh well. to each there own. OH. AND LYNDSEY GOT A DATEEEEE. IM SO PROUD. She was like crying on the bus because she thought she was a loser and going to be the only one without one. But then she got asked by Brandyn. Who I then found out was like 17 lmao. I SWEAR TO GOD THE KID LOOKS LIKE HES 13. Whatever. I thought the fact he had a mustache was a little weird. Just figured he was like Demchak though I guess. So hmmm. Lyndsey was supposed to skip with me today. But she didnt. Because shes stupid. And she hates me. And she never comes over. lmao. Dude the funniest thing happened on the bus yesterday. I'm like "God. What a bitch. TAKE HER DOWN LYNDSEY!" "Ugh she'd probably kill me." "Good, girl deserves it.- OH SHIT I MEANT HER NOT YOU" I guess you had to be there. It was just funny. Since I told Lyndsey to die... But I didnt even mean her... I dont know. Twas an ironic/funny thing of sorts. I have decided that I love Seducing Dr. Lewis. And Coffee and Cigarettes. Which I might just have to buy. SOOOO. I'm running out of things to talk about. You know, its amazing how I start out these things saying I have nothing to say and then ramble on for lord knows how many paragraphs. Oh well. Welcome to Kayla, a.k.a. THE RAMBLER- DunDunDun :) I HAD TO DO IT! E.NOUGHHH as Lyndsey would say. Well. I'm gonna clean my room. Since in case I do decide to throw that party OR LITTLE PIECE OF HEAVEN (((whichever you prefer))) Then I wont have to stress about cleaning my room ontop of everything else. Well. I'll write back later. And I realized I dont key in much lyrics anymore. Even though I sing 24/7. I guess Im just sick of sharing. My lyrical insight. Among other things... I'll just do some COT. Like TALCOTT. And mentions Rose. Middle name. Think about it. Coincidence, I think not. Half burned cigarettes And you're the trash That infests my sheets. Can't make a wife out of a whore. Don't want your skin on me. And you're. You're addicted to the drug of lust. Detoxing in the cold sweat of shame. And I LOVE your pain. I gave you these roses now But I left in the thorns. I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself. I'll dispose of you Like a lighter out of fuel. I'll loose you somewhere on a dusty shelf. I'm here lying in your bed babe. Do you remember what you said to me? 'You can be my sweet queen. I'll be your James Dean.' I said that you were my first. But you weren't even CLOSE now. Like a frame in a movie. You're just one of many. Can you grant me one last wish? Play Russian Roulette as we kiss. I'll be your cheap novelty. Blow your brains out on me...