HOLY CRAP TOMORROW'S CHRISTMAS EVE♥ i cant wait to get my laptop this computer is getting crappier by the day... ben got me a bob marley poster for christmas at first i was kinda upset because i thought he knew nothing about me and thought i was like some stoner chick or something but then when i got home and looked at it its flipping HILARIOUS, and i realized that anything that random means the kid does care. so that made me excited =) max got me this really cute whale its got like a sailor hat on and its names Captain hahah but i like it. and he finally gave my Starting Line CD back they've only come out with 3 new albums SINCE THEN that titty. oh, and he FINALLY gave me the poster that he got me when he was on summer vacation hahah its so amazing its got like every letter of the alpabet and each one has a little cartoon with a kid dying hahha the one is like B is for Bertin who was mauled by bears. stuff like that its so me. i love it so muchhhh♥ oh! and emily madrak made me an ornament with my name on it. she's so sweeeeeettt and its red (my favorite color) AND! she left the glue on mine so it looks like its bleeding she knows me so well I LOVE MY BABYYYY!! christmas vacation has officially started so thats a plus. im kinda bored and feel kinda shitty but at least its better than being bored&shitty at school hahah oh! and yesterday me lynds and brittany ramey went around to pass out cards for SADD (Students Against Destructive Decisions) and we had to go to the elementary and on our list was Mrs. Copes, Ben and Dan's mom and i've been there a few times and stuff but i haven't seen her since i dyed my hair black so i went in and was chatting up a storm and she acted like she kinda knew who i was but she wasn't sure. and im like HELLO LADY IM MARRYING YOUR SON!??! butttt whatever. i might go over this weekend with marissa i guess she invited me?? thats what marissa said. she said she "wanted me to come over and have dinner" hopefully she'll remember me when i show up at her house hahaha brittany mowry called me a couple nights ago to wish me a merry christmas i love when brittany calls, even though i hate the phone i just miss her so much sometimes i found out she has MSN though so hopefully i'll get to talk to her on there soon her mom won't let her download AIM or some crap. i dunnooo but we were talking about Brooke and how much we miss her and how its like we have to take advantage of life because we don't wan't brooke's death to be a weaste, you know? and i really want to go visit brooke's grave its her first christmas in there, and i don't want her to spend it alone... the only problem is that it's not marked and i didnt get to go to the funeral so i dont know which grave is hers brittany said shes going to try and go so if she does she'll try and bring me along i want derek to take me up there because derek's the one whos been there for me the most through everything with Brooke. i know hes an ass sometimes, and most females hate him, but i dont know. me and him just get along and i think i'd feel better if he went with me. oh a happier note, i hope everyone has a great christmas. or hanukkah or kwanzaa or whatever you believe in ♥ i'll miss you all over break =( [p.s.] i saw cry_wolf today. omfg, it is AMAZING. buy it if you can. and 40 year old virgin is really funny too, so check that one out as well =) P.S.S lmao. i just realized that i had my diary set to friends only and then to private as well, so no one could read it. ...and i wondered why i didnt get any comments... it should be fixed now, so go back and read my last entry if you want im sooo sorry hahaha i love you guys♥