I talked to Kevin a little while ago. I suppose I will show the conversation because I don't really even feel like explaining.. TheLeftOutLoser: Hi. CaucasianInvsn: good evening TheLeftOutLoser: Nice greeting.. -_- CaucasianInvsn: sorry? TheLeftOutLoser: You have nothing to be sorry for. TheLeftOutLoser: I wasn't being sarcastic. TheLeftOutLoser: For once. CaucasianInvsn: o okay TheLeftOutLoser: So, what's up? CaucasianInvsn: playing poker TheLeftOutLoser: Fun. TheLeftOutLoser: Sorry if I bothered you? CaucasianInvsn: nah TheLeftOutLoser: I'm not exactly sure why I IMed you I guess it's just odd for me not to talk to you. TheLeftOutLoser: Sorry. CaucasianInvsn: for TheLeftOutLoser: Uhm. I got disconnected? CaucasianInvsn: oh CaucasianInvsn: it didnt even show you signed off CaucasianInvsn: my computer is weird like that sometimes TheLeftOutLoser: Yeah. TheLeftOutLoser: Do you like, want me not to talk to you? CaucasianInvsn: no CaucasianInvsn: they finished the outside of the house and put in windows CaucasianInvsn: its really cool TheLeftOutLoser: Well, because like. I don't even know. I guess just the way we kind of stopped talking before would sort of give me the impression that you don't want to talk to me. CaucasianInvsn: you were mad at me and im not a fan of arguements TheLeftOutLoser: I never said I was mad at you. TheLeftOutLoser: And I wasn't. TheLeftOutLoser: I just found it not like you to just totally ignore me. TheLeftOutLoser: But then again. TheLeftOutLoser: I guess I don't really know you. CaucasianInvsn: i had alot on my mind CaucasianInvsn: i wasnt trying not to talk to you TheLeftOutLoser: Then why did you say like 5 things and then just totally stop talking to me? CaucasianInvsn: i dont remember CaucasianInvsn: ive been on spring break CaucasianInvsn: i havent been the msot focused person CaucasianInvsn: yeah im just making up worthless excuses CaucasianInvsn: im jus trying to make sense TheLeftOutLoser: It's not working. TheLeftOutLoser: Because I don't see any of the excuses you are making to help me feel any better. TheLeftOutLoser: But I bother things that no longer even count anymore. TheLeftOutLoser: And I'm sorry. CaucasianInvsn: i dont even know what to tell you TheLeftOutLoser: Then don't. TheLeftOutLoser: Because I'm just sorry I even bothered with this issue when I knew what I would get anyway. TheLeftOutLoser: Bye. I hate that I used to be so attached to him and now we don't even talk at all. Like I don't even see how he can just almost be so out of it. Like he doesn't remember he ever told me he loved me. Or most possibly he just doesn't want to remember. I love having Elizabeth as my best friend. We're so much alike in that she makes me feel better and answers questions I can't even seem to answer myself. Here's some things between her and I.. TheLeftOutLoser: I don't even know why I bothered to talk to him when I knew in the back of my mind I would get responses like this. TheLeftOutLoser: Why Elizabeth? TheLeftOutLoser: Why do I freaking bother? UnimaginedImage3: Because you care about him at the bottom of your heart.. UnimaginedImage3: And you bother because.. UnimaginedImage3: You think that the outcome will be okay. UnimaginedImage3: Well hope. I love Elizabeth like no other. She's my best friend and she'll always be there, I hope.