Long ago Just like the hearse you died to get in again We are so far from you Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate The lives of everyone you knew And what's the worst you take (worst you take) from every heart you break (heart you break) And like the blade you stain (blade you stain) Well I've been holding on tonight [Chorus] What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long and goodnight It's like I have unconditional love for him. But I'm learning to let him go. I've learned that I don't need him to be happy and I haven't even been happy for a long time. A really long time. He needs to understand how much he has hurt me over these few months. No. You know what? It doesn't matter if he understands or not. We will never be together again. Never. We said we would but he will never have time for me. I don't fucking need him. I really don't. On to a happier topic. This guy Blake at my school, I like him a lot. And last night I found out that he likes me too! I'm so freaking happy. Yes. Happy without Mike again. Blake and I are a lot more alike than I thought we were. He still loves his ex. He said he cares about her a lot but he said that if we get to know each other more and everything settles down with his ex we can go out. That makes me happy. He makes me happy as a good friend. I know how he feels. And it was just like suddenly that I said I'm not going to cry over Mike anymore. I'm not going to. Even though I still love him I now actually realize that no matter how much I love him and no matter how many days I cry over him, he will still never be around. Sometimes I wish he knew how many times I cried over him in the past few months. But yet again, it doesn't matter. We said we would get back together but he will never have time for me. I don't fucking need him. I really don't. I'm now positive that we will never be together again. Somehow, I think it's for the better. Fuck his love for me. It was never real.