I haven't written since Tuesday. By the time I think about writing the site is always down. Oh well. Elizabeth likes this guy named Keith. She went out with him when she was in 6th grade but they broke up for some unknown reason. He's really nice and all, I just don't like the fact that he gets high all the time. Sometimes I wonder about Jake. Like we'll be doing fine. Then someone will say some shit about him and Marissa. I don't know. I don't really let it bug me anymore because it shouldn't matter anymore. But sometimes I let it get to me.. I want Elizabeth to be happy, but I don't even know if Keith will go out with her. She got sort of mad today because I didn't really say much about the whole situation. She's like 'Thanks for caring.' and I wasn't sure if she was being sarcastic or not. But of course, she was. I do care but I'm just not good about dealing with others people's emotions. It's hard for me to listen. I don't know why though. My dad made me sort of mad today. He's like 'I talked to your friend today. She told me to tell you hi and she misses you.' I was like 'Whatever.' And he got all defensive about her. Incase you don't know. The 'her' is my dad's ex-girlfriend that's in New York right now. Eh. Let me tell that story.. And so like. A little over a year ago, my dad and Pamela met. He hung out with her a lot. And yeah. It made me really jealous. But. I got over it, realizing she made him happy. She moved in along with her son. And I still got along with her. But then. I started to realize that I had NO time whatsoever alone with my dad anymore. So, I started to dislike her. It made my dad SO mad at me. That I couldn't just get along with her. With the hope that since he loved her, I would accept her. But I STILL dislike her. Just because of all the things she's done to him. She's says she's such a great Christian and she's soooooooo true to God. Fecking bullshit. It's all lies. She's a betrayer. And I can't stand her. So anyway. Today on the phone he got somewhat mad because I wouldn't give him reasons for saying 'Whatever.' when she says she misses me. I don't need excuses to make up for her mistakes. Because as far as I am concerned, she needs to get her stuff together before even thinking of coming back here and moving back in. I guess I understood for awhile that she made him happy. But after so long, all the mistakes she made, and all the stupid things she did, I just didn't like her. What I did realize is that I mostly didn't like her because she took away time with my dad. That's why I liked when my parents divorced because I had all the time I wanted with my dad. We could go out and spend time together. But once she came along, and stayed home everyday without doing a damn thing but clean the house, I just couldn't deal with it anymore. The ONE thing that made me most mad was when my dad told me I had one week to straighten up my act and be nice to her, or he would make me move in with my mom. I got so mad. And just wanted to FREAKING blow up in his face. That he wouldn't choose ME, his own daughter over some stupid woman he hadn't even known for two years. But off to better subjects. Our 8th grade picnic is on Thursday of next week. It should be pretty fun. We can wear whatever we want and we're spending about six hours at the playground. I don't know what to wear. But oh well. I might write later. Bye..