I never really liked change. My entire life I hated doing things different. I always stuck to doing the same thing. Perhaps change isn't bad all of the time. If you change for the worse, then of course it isn't good. But if you change for the better, then you can be happier. I changed a lot throughout the years. Who hasn't? When you yourself changes, it's a lot different than things changing around you. New situations are difficult to relate to. Having to get used to new surroundings. I know sometimes I should change. Change for not only myself but for my friends. Like, sometimes I think that if I smoked and I drank like most of my friends do, it would make them happy. Like. I'm just another one of their same friends, who doesn't care about what's really going to happen to them. At times I feel like I should be that way. That I shouldn't care. And just want to be different? But. If I smoked and drank like all of them. Wouldn't I be the same? Wouldn't there be no change after getting used to it and continuing to do it? Wouldn't I end up being another stoned friend of theirs? I don't know. I choose not to expose myself to these situations. I choose to be straight edge and not drink or smoke or do drugs. It's my choice. And no one can make me do it. Sometimes my friends don't seem to understand. Like they don't udnerstand why I don't just do it. Or even just try it. Why should I if I don't even want to? It makes no sense to me. Even though I haven't done a lot of stuff relating to drinking and smoking, so I don't know how it's like, if I don't want to do it, then why are they trying to make me? Yeah yeah. Peer pressure. I know. But I'm against doing all of that. And I will be for a long time.