hey, well im new and starting up! so yeah! today/tonight my life has been pretty shit, with all these fukin tossers usin me 4 pussy o sum sad ass shit like that ( i didnt let them though ) i mean i am only 14!!!!***i'm always depressed cos i always get hurt and ma heart gives in to easily! i go throught alot of pain - crying evry night/day, constantly hurting myself ( slitting wrists, burning myself ) i know i might sound really fuked up or weird but im not honest im just going through a really ruff patch! u know chik shit!***i live in australia and tomorrow it EASTER lol hehehehe:P chocolate!!!;);)***when i was 7 i was sexually abused by a family friend who was baby sitting me and he was 17!! i almost got raped but i ran next door! ( thank god ) - and well since it just kind of keeps happening like not with tht guy but with teenage guys u kno! like the utha day i was getting stalked by 4 random guys n tht was fuking scary shit! and last week this goth guy mollested me!!*** i feel like im not wanted and i dont belong well hay maybe i dont - maybe its a sign that im shitty and worthless! but i cant realli help that now can i!!*** my parents are divourced and i have a brother who is 7 and well he's a bit of a little shit ( u kno how brothers are ) and yea!i have totally awsome friends though! they are always there 4 me and pretty much the reason why i am still here***i have this really bitchy gurl @ ma skewl though who used me 2 get to ma group (popular group, sorri if i sound up myself) and now shes being a total mole/whore/bitch and fuking fuked up piece of shit 2 me and sum of ma mates nd man no efence but she is an ugly fat mole - yea that rite jess u fuking BITCH - ok nywayz over that, theres a guy @ ma skewl called leith and he mite aswell marry jess cos hes a fuking faget who is a self centred prick! but yea - i like this guy called tim but he likes one of my best friends called ALI so i dont wana upset her! so im trying to hook them 2 uo 2gethere ( AM I DOIN THA RIGHT THING THERE ?? ) ot not, SHANE is like ma best guy frend he always helps me out and i love him so much 4 always being there 4 me!!, SAM is my ex ex ex b/f who i always get hurt alot by him! he keeps me hanging like a fool! but hay ma life aint perfect! RACH is one of ma best mates eva nd i love her 2 bits;) ok well im just letting you know a bit about myself and tomorrow night i will start reflecting on my day!