okayy well lately alot has been going on, and there is someone that i have feelings for who completely fucks me around all the time. Alritey here goes the story... Guys have a brain..it is called their FUCKING DICK!!! .. On November the 25th i took this guys V. Then since we have done it two more times which i might add were good but the aftermath was terrible. He just always fucks me around and plays with me emotionally. A recent party which was on saturday night he went and licked out some slut who he supposably "hates" and SHE WAS ON HER PERIOD!!!!! how fucking disgusting is that .. oh right and then get this .. the fucker came to me afterwards for shit too and cus i was unaware what he did at the time, i did shit with him!! HOW GOD DAMN GROSE IS THAT!!!! Then i found out by the slut he licked out that he ..licked her out! i then msgd him saying "thanx for telling me u licked out .... " and then he sent one back in the morning saying "oh no, i honestly forgot that, thanx for reminding me" and then i sent anutha one bak saying " i am sure u did, i hope you had fun :|" OKay and then later on that night on the net he was like hi :S and i go hi :( and he goes "why are you upset?, i should be the one who is upset" and i was like wtf so i sed "excuse me? how would you be upset, i thought you had heaps of fun with ... last night?" and then he goes " ye well i hell regret that, bla bla bla" and then this convo went on for ages and we finally sorted it out .. but then i have been contiplating the issue over the past few days and to think how stupid i am to still like him .. WE ARE NOT EVEN GOING OUT!!! i feel so fuking ashamed to know him, to even have feelings for him after what he has done, i mean it is like he hates her with a passion and then he goes and LICKS THE SLUT OUT while she was on her period i might add!! and it is like if he says he hates her but still goes and does shit with her it makes me think well what if he is doing the same thing to me and sayn that he hates me but then comes over and visits me @ work to get shit off of me!! *ARGH* guys just fuck you around ay. How could i obsess over someone who hurts me all the time .. he also likes some other chick but he still does shit with me .. :S it is seriously some fucked up shit .. "i may have his body, but she has his heart" i just do not understand, i really dont..and the thing that is going to hurt even more is that when he has sex with aother chick .. she is going to think that she took his virginity .. but i did!! .. he is just using me as a practice anyways .. thats all guys ever do .. i am sorry if it offends some guys but the guys in australia .. it is highly true!!! .. The truth hurts!! Anyways i am still trying to figure out what i am going to do, so if anyone has any ideas please post them .. Toodles Luv Lana XoXoXoXoX