[29]in the end

by lana
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well things in my life go up and down and im sure it does in other peoples lives aswell! in the end from this i have learned that we all go through hard stages but to me this makes me a stronger person! i have taken in all of your guys/chix advice and i am now stronger than ever .. i thank you all so much for that! some person has been messaging my parents saying really awful things about me like i drink i smoke n i am a slut and i know for sure that i did use to drink, smoke and be a bit of a slut but i am not anymore because i have found god! and it annoys me and hurts me so much that some one is doing this to see me suffer i mean i dont get how our world could exress so much hate! it doesnt make sense! but in the end i am gonna show who ever it is that i am strong and i dont care! ( i dno who msgd my parents ) the other day my dad was telling me about work and 2 people commited suicide *THREE* and one of the guys had a 12yr old daughter! when he got outta the car to shop i cryed so much cos it hurts me to see the world in so much hate! t really upsets me . so please if you ever have thoughts or hurt yourself i am here and talk to me because you may not think that people care .. but i do!:) luv u all x0x0x0x0x0x -lana-
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Awwwww. That's allot of sucides. Wow you're only 14? You look way older. Lol. I hope the poeple stop calling you stuff you're not anymore. Muah <3 ashlee
[Anonymous]
hi lana...well i'm really happy to see your view point i am very proud of you...i know how you feel about so much hate in the world and the whole suicide thing. I even wrote an entry on it called "read me...and then think about it" or something like that. Read it, it's good. And have people read it. anywho...i'm glad you have found God. It's so amazing having him in one's life, i love it. It's one of the most amazing things i know. yea
very inspiring, I think your diary is psychadelic. (however its spelled)

--Kaelen
[Anonymous]
yea we do all go through stages..and it never stops. we learn from all mistakes. whoever is telling your parents that..its non of their business to tell them. if you wanted them to know im sure you'd tell them. and yea lots of ppl are deep in depression,hate and into hurting themselves. i know this cus i almost did a stupid thing. but we can get help. theres no need to die...
hey lana it's katherine...yeah i had to make a new diary bcuz a hacker got on to my missyou and changed my password...yeah and it really sux!! Well check out my new one sweetkisses

[Anonymous]
oh and yes...god is the coolest...whoop whoop
[Anonymous]
oh man...hopefully that person who has been talking shit about you dies or something....well...bye bye....
[Anonymous]
hey lana
it's katherine...okay what ever that person is saying to ur parents about you is not true...ur the most wonderful person I know...cuz you've helped me a lot
[Anonymous]
aww thanks, ur so nice. y would ne 1 want 2 put you down like that? she must b a real bitch.

hey, do u care if i add u 2 my friends list?
[Anonymous]
hey how are you? well im in lancaster and wow that sounds scary that they commited suicied srry cant spell but yea g2g love you love shanwa
[Anonymous]
I'm ok lana :) hope you're feeling better soon.

Gotta go out to get some things done in town today. Have a great night :D

If you need me for anything just comment me. take care!

Rich
hey :) i just want to say that it's awesome that you have found God! if God has forgiven you then who is anyone else not to? that's what you always have to remember. your past is forgotten and you are pure as snow as far as God is concerned, and that's all that matters! cute diary! :)

*holly brooke
im sry people are so rude. its your business, and your lfie, they need to stay the hell out. and im glad youre being optimistic, lol, big word there. bye. -RR
You are such a wonderful person and I'm glad that you have found something to believe in. You know and you've read that I cut myself sometimes. I don't do it to hurt myself though. I do it to deal with and relieve stress. It helps me deal with the world around me. I don't recoment anyone do it thoguh. Once you do it you get addicted and can't stop. I hate that I do It, but its my way out. I'd never think of suicide though. C-ya.
Jon
That's so great that you found God! It makes me so happy to see someone else who has made God a part of their lives. Don't worry about what people are telling your parents. God will find a way to sort things out. Just put all of your trust in him. In the mean time, live life with happiness! God Bless!
[Anonymous]
wow!I LOVE your journal!!!!
I mean the fact that you found God- that's awesome!!!
I did too (And so did my friend Becca- jesushomegirl- we're all 14 too).
But yea- you're awesome- you're going to be tempted though, so stay strong!

Alex
[Anonymous]
Hope everything works out for you Lana, I know it will like I told you on msn :)

Take care ok?
Rich
hey thanks for your comment, im doin ok.

and its good 2 know that at least someone cares.......
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