I can't believe how quickly people change. Especially when you have noticed that you are the one who is changing. It is not only frightening but mysterious because you want to know what your future is and what your destiny will bring. But then again you need to let fate take it's course. It is quite frustrating when you do not know anything about yourself. It is hard because you can't trust yourself with yourself. I mean you cannot even trust your own feelings let alone anyone else. Trust is so important these days yet not everyone knows the true meaning of trust, one of those 'everyones' is me. I feel as though i am burning inside and the only thing that can put out that fire are my tears. It feels as though no one can help and they just watch me drown and watch me fall to pieces - i am about to break. It's like i keep stumbling and falling down and no one is there there to help me up. I cannot make it through the rain. I think that alot of the time people are always questioning themselves "what is keeping me here another day?". And i know life was not made easy but then i think death must not be that hard then. So many regrets with so much shit. I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday on his birthday because we kept getting into fights and shit and cus he always dwells on the past and it will eventually lower me to his level of misery and in a "relationship" i dont want that. I mean when you are with someone you are ameant to be happy and content with that person and with him i wasn't. Anyways i got to go - So much for my happy ending.