[19]isolation

by lana on April 18th 2004, 12:00AM

Listening to: the TV

Feeling: hurt

isolation :| thats all i want to do now! not go out anywhere, not see my friends, not talk on the phone, my mobile now switched off! isolating myself from the real world instead i drift off into my own! my own world! i dont wana hurt u or anyone! it seems i treat people like toys - i break them! i dont want to break u or anyone! i dont want to upset u or anyone! all i seem to do is hurt, break, upset people! im sorry! i make alot of people miserable, depressed! i screw them up! i now sit in my room all day all night! im isolated, away from the world, i now cant hurt, break, upset people! the only way i communicate is on here nd msn! but still then i screw people up! i get lectured, hurt, upset! who do i turn to?? hard question isnt it!? the weather is depressing, my life depressing, people i love! but dont talk 2 me - depressing! hmmmm depressed/isolation! yey sounds fun! in pain! depressed/suicidal/in isolation

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I guess that's what I have to do, put my faith in my desicions (sp), but my brain and heart ache from all this shit, and the pain is taking over and confusing me, and blinding me to what I really want.

[Anonymous]

by the way, i like ur poems. u should post more.

u can go to razrsharptears if u want to read some of mine.

hey, i get the whole isolation thing, sometimes i just want people to leave me the fuck alone too....... but they usually dont.

haha thanks a ton! your totally right!!
love!
-dontask

I'm good :) you? Thanks, i hope you come back and read it again :)

[slitwristtheory]

aww, we love you, dont feel that way

hey thnx for the comment yesterday, and you shouldnt be saying that! i mean look at all the comments you've had and that shows you how much "you hurt people" i mean the comment u left me was really sweet! please dont be like this, i hope all goes well with shane, btw what hapened between you 2! you were such good mates,

hey i like your page and hope we talk again sometime xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I LOVE YOU LANA!! u need to download AIM so we can talk, im not used to msn lol...lildee259967 is my AIM screen name if u ever want to talk..i love uu

hey..10x for ur comment.really sweet..well, if that's the way u feel, why don't u try not spend that much time on msn, internet chat and stuff..it's just that feeling of wasted time..

um ditto! You should buy fish. make you feel like God and then you get happy. Sometimes. Im not sure what im typing.

Cya soon!

Hi Lana! It's Simon, I don't know how you know my name, there's people that say that they know me and they don't even know my name. All's great here, it's beginning to be sunny outside and all is very nice. But my girlfriend is missing me, so, I feel a little depress then. But I just relax, I have some work to do but, I'm not motivated. I smoke cigarets and watch movies. Take care and feel free to write me back
Simon

i dont know what to say, all i know is that when there is so much bad, its hard to see the good, but it is there. just keep looking for it

Hey, so you just want to be friends with him? I don't know. My boyfriend is perfect, don't mean to rub it in, but I love him so much.

bi polar is a mental disese where you go from happy to sad really fast and then you get deep deep depressions alot of the time and then a second later you are bouncing off the wall for no reason. It can only be cured through taking medication and there are thousands all over the world already taking medication for bi poler

thankz sweetie am tryin hope u are doin a lot betta luv ya. If u ever wanna talk I'll always listen.

lana
well there is this guy online who i met by randomly searching the diaries. he is really cute to me. his diary name is blindlesstears. yeah he seems nice, but i don't know what to do about mike...cuz i just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that he will dump me by tonight...i don't know i am so confused...what should i do about mike...HELP ASAP!!

hey lana this is katherine, i'm good!! yeah i could use someone to talk to right about now...okay this is my 3rd time going out with mike, but i don't know i'm having 2nd thoughts cuz he always dumps me a day or couple days later...i don't know what to do...HELP!!

Hey Lana. Thanks for the comment, and YES I love to sing. Thanks for the advice. ;)

life is an endless cycle of good times and bad, the bad times make the good ones that much better. you seem like a great girl with an amazing future ahead of you, how do I know this.... I just do.

Hey Lana, thanks for the comment. The Lion King has pretty much been the best thing in my holidays. I like your writings, and I will continue reading.:)
Flick.

You dont upset me. I like you. You make me feel better.

I just dont come out of the house to prevent the risk of being laughed at by strangers. Erm... god im sad :$.
Plz feel better.

Im still not on your friends list :(.

~Frostie

[frostie]

oh haha...well... thanks heh