i was mowing the lawn today and i saw a little toad hopping in my path. i turned off the mower and picked him up and helped him along. i didn't want to lacerate the poor helpless creature. even though i'm sure a hungry snake ate him moments later, but oh well. ohh i have the best ideas in me. when i get the right things to put in me they will all come out. this is going to be one wonderful life. wonderfully free. you fear change but change itself is the only thing that could do. i wonder.. no, it couldn't ..but maybe. ummm i ordered some new shirts today. i got this sweet radiohead one and this pavement one. i also got a reservoir dogs shirt and it looks very, very badass. i was going to get a pulp fiction one but they only had 2 designs and i didn't really like either of them. and then i got a couple others and a sweatshirt. how i wish, how i wish you were here... (no, not her, you fucks) apprehension and potential embarrassment are and will continue to be the bane of adult life. just be like kids please, everyone. don't be scared. it isn't worth it. i know now where i can go.