this might just be a waste of time
but there's no one
i'd rather waste my time with
than all my best friends
so start up the car
So today was fun for the most part. Or maybe not. I can't choose. School went okay even though I was hella tired.
After school Dad called and we talked and I think I almost came close to missing him. Almost. And then I reminded myself how dumb that would make me.
Then I went to the mall with Cara so she could get her hair cut. It looks good.
Then I came home and all hell broke loose. I knew the second I walked into the computer room where my mom was sitting that she knew. And I saw that Kristina had IMed me but I couldn't see what she had said. And uknowingly I said "i'm so tired" and she was like "oh yeah? Why are you so tired? How late were you up?" I was like "umm not that late." (which is true. we all went to bed at 1AM). And then she was like "what's Kristina talking about a party?" And I was thinking "what a fxcking dumbass." (sorry Kris, but really.. you need to watch what you say when we only have ONE computer in our household.) So I said we had some people over and yes there was alcohol. I didn't really care that she had found out that I was a party because I didn't do anything AT ALL. I told her I went to keep an eye on Kristina and DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. What hurt the most was that she didn't believe me. And I just started crying and I called Kristina to tell her and she was on the other line with Nina who was freaking out because Kristina's mom was going to call Nina's parents when they came home.
So the shxt hit the fan. And it didn't take that long. I went to my bedroom and laid down in bed and cried myself to sleep. I didn't get up until 9PM and that was only to be nice to Dustin (it was his birthday) because mom was playing "the sick mother" who has been laying in bed since last Wednesday. I think she's starting to just fake it. Seriously, you can't even try to do anything on your son's twentieth birthday?
Oh but the funniest part is this: I was the only person at the party to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING and I end up being the FIRST to be grounded out of everyone that was there. I thought that was fantastic. So I get in trouble for helping a friend. I guess that's what happens. I'm not lying just to sound like a 'responsible person'. I didn't go to drink. I absolutely did not go to get high. I only went because Kristina was going and I had this feeling that I needed to keep an eye on her. And I was correct with my assumption but it ended up getting me in trouble anyways. I'm not blaming it on her at all. I just don't understand why I can't be trusted. I lied to help a friend. I didn't mean to dissappoint anyone.
1You only hold me up like this, 'cause you don't know who I really am.
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You only hold me up like this, 'cause you don't know who I really am.
2:36AM