The sun is setting, there is a man next to me. he's very hagard, he keeps trying to tell me all that I will be. He tells me of his children. He has nine. He tells me they're all dead. My heart skips a beat at this line. I'm not sure what to say. I've never been there. I don't know whats it's like to bury your own children. He begins to pull out his hair. I wonder why he figits. He looks me in the eye. He tells me he is my future. I dont think that its a lie. The world changes around me. I'm not sure who my freinds are. I don't know the length of freindship. All I can do is wish upon a star. But even they seem to fall. All my imperfections seem so clear. I dont know if I know anything at all. ~from my dreams It was hard enough to dream this. I dont know why it was also hard to wake up. It was an extremely long day. Do dentists usually make you thirsty? I walked home from the dentist after school. My sister and I had a long talk. It was nice. she gave me useful advice and we just generally complained about my parientals. I wanna be liked by everyone again. I just wanna be glad. I'm gonna try and sing in the shower. I dont ever want to be sad. But noone ever gives me a second thought. I thought I loved you once. but now I start to think you could rot. I am not anybodies slave. but for some reason I seem only fit to serve. why do you all rant and rave I am just the same as you. I think.