Well, I am here. I guess thats about all I can really muscle out of these hands right now. I am definitely unhappy, and I hate these times. Because I am perfectly justified in being unhappy, but if I had someone close who would bother to help me out, I would be just fine. Bekah did that for me once, it was strange, but I really did enjoy it. I thought for a while that I could come home off the mission and date her, but I have tried that before with someone else, and it was just weird. I don't think I can survive that twice. We will see, I guess it's really obvious right now that I don't have very much control over my life let alone anyone else's. I wish I could write a song, maybe now that my social life is dead I can work something out with the creative muses. I don't think they negotiate though. look I almost made a funny! Sorry I am just trying to cheer myself up. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, I didn't want to go today. I want to go back to substitute teaching. I need a girl, mate.