So, life eh............bleh. I'm not in a very good mood right now. I did, however, have a fun day!! I went to Emily's party. Emily, Brad, Moo moo, landen and his new love Cydne were there. It was fun. During apples to apples I was a little craby and I'm sorry for you guys who were there cause I was just wanting to rip everyones heads off for NO good reason what so ever! And esspecially to Landen cause I gave you the hardest time! I still love ya! So yeah, I went home early because I was just........ewww....and I just wanted to go home and write sad songs and poetry...maybe play a little guitar, but my plan kinda back fired because I had other stuff to do. .......gross....... So, I'm listening to a very good song! It's Lips of and Angel by Hinder! *tear* I'm so alone! I know! You all probably don't want to hear me complaining, but I am.... I guess I never really moved on... So what happens now..... I'm.......well.........I've been having thoughts that I shouldn't have....about the past....the recent past. I should be over it by now....but I'm not. I just don't understand why this always happens..... Why I always wonder........and never regret....I will never regret it, because it was one of the best times of my life. It got me out of my depression and just threw me right back in it again. You stole my heart and thew it back into this dead end.... *sigh* Everything is falling apart in my mind.... I hate not being able to say anything! I just have to live with it, but living with it is just killing me instead..... Don't cry to me. If you love me, you would be hear with me. You want me, come find me! Make up your mind!! And you're too late. Couldn't take the blame, sick with shame!!! Must be exasting to loose your own game! Selfishly hated, no wonder your jaded. You can't blame the victim this time! ............You only want it cause it's over....... Mi sento depressa perche mi sento sola. ~Britney Francis~ P.S. Here's that song again. I just need to see how people like it. Thanx Light the way my darling By: Britney Francis Light the way so I may see What I should do with reality Should I lie to the world and say I'm ok? or should I walk the earth and hurt the people I love on the way? Should I pretend I'm a canvas Painted with the feelings around us and hide all my flaws That make me plain? Or should I find comfort in my imperfections and let it all sink in again? Chorus You loved me once and now there is no more sign of feelings for me or that you were ever mine What should I do to make it all go away What should I say to make myself get away I cried in your arms and sighed at your charms you pushed me away and laughed on the way You left me there to weep with despair you left me to die to hate my own life but what you can't see is that you hurt me I just walked away and said "I'm ok" Chorus You loved me once and now there is no more sign of feelings for me or that you were ever mine What should I do to make it all go away What should I say to make myself get away I live In my head And sung On my bed the words I can't say To your face And I pray That you Will see That you'll always Love me You might Disagree But what I can see is the way that you look at me..... Chorus You loved me once And now there is no more sign Of feelings for me Or that you were ever mine What should I do To make it all go away What should I say To make myself get away What would you like For me to do Should I stand In front of you And look in your eyes And cry..... Words...... Bridge: I can see it in your eyes my love You love me still to this day But don't worry I won't tell Because you won't yourself anyway...