167-Fear the feelings

Feeling: unsatisfied
I told Landon that I couldn't ask him to the dance. (Which is now changed! So I'm going to ask him soon) My mom said that I couldn't afford it, so she said I couldn't go. So I told Landon at the B-ball game on Thursday and he said that we'll find a way. I told him sorry that I couldn't take him. After the game I walked him to his car. He turned it on and a song came on. I think he had planned it. So the song was Like I am from Rascal Flatts. Then he said, "Well, since you can't go to the dance, we'll have our own dance right here." So he took me in his arms and we danced to this beautiful song! He would kiss my face and my mouth and whisper in my ear how much he loved me! If I was made out of ice instead of flesh, I would have melted faster than you could say Britney Francis! Right at the end of the song, he gave me a long kiss while picking me up and putting me down! It was sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!! He said that the song we danced to was his song to me! After that I just wanted to cry because it was the best and most tender moment I have EVER had in my entire life!!!! But I didn't until I got home. The song went like this, Lying here with you I watch you while you sleep The dawn is closing in With every breath you breathe I can feel the change The change you've made in me But will I ever see All the things you see in me When you say that I'm one of a kind Baby, I don't see it but you believe That I'm so strong and true, I promise you I'll try to be that kind of man Because you love me like I am When it comes to love I may not know the rules But there's one thing I know My heart belongs to you, just you When you say that I'm one of a kind Baby, I don't see it but you believe That I'm so strong and true, I promise you I'll try to be that kind of man Because you love me like I am You show me you love me With a fire that burns deep inside When you say that I'm one of a kind Baby, I don't see it but you believe That I'm so strong and true, I promise you I'll try to be that kind of man Because you love me like I am When you say that I'm one of a kind Baby, I don't see it but you believe That I'm so strong and true, I promise you I'll try to be that kind of man Because you love me like I am -- I am I'll never understand I don't think I'll ever understand Why you love me Why you love me just like I am It was the most perfect song!!! Sometimes when I'm with him, I just stare at him and think, "Will I be able to stay with him forever? Is this the right choice?" Then, at the perfect moment, he says things and holds me, letting me know that it is right! I don't know how to explain it, but I just can't imagine my life without him! I was with him last night, and we were watching a movie at his house. We were eating food and I was really tired! So I just laid down and almost fell asleep, but I couldn't because I couldn't take my eyes off of him! I asked him, "Landon, Will we be like this even when we're 40?" Then he smiled at me and laid next to me, hugging me and said, "Yes. And I when you wake up every morning while we're married, I'll watch you sleep until you wake up. Just like this. I would love to wake up like this." I love him. And I will never let him go! ~Britney Francis~
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Sweetie, you have nothing to worry about. Landon & I are just friends. I'm very happy that you can trust me and I promise that I will not betray your trust... And I ALWAYS keep my promises.