bitter. just a tad. so my head hurts and its project black-canvas-bag-with-patches-all-over-it tonight at the mall. and project buy-soph-hop-dress tomorrow. and buy-deja-entiendu-cd. nick gave me some note saying he can't be my friend anymore? it was really weird. he said i made candice lose all trust for him or something. which i find odd cause they seem pretty damn happy with each other. and that i ruined friendships and shizz. yeahah. i hardly ever see him. i dont get that. or his friends. i was like wtf? not because i was mad really but because none of it added up to me. and how do you set a boundary on friends? can i make EYE CONTACT with him? can i say HI? or even WHATS UP? or has "WHATS UP" gone TOO FAR? yeah so anyways i'm pissed off. because hes saying that i'm ruining his life and every time i see him hes like exploding with joy. yeah. me. i'm recklessly disrupting his cute little life. me who comes home and cries like every other day. and the whole trust thing. i've learned that the only thing you can trust is stuffed animals and select genres of music. and even the animals are iffy. in other news i got the first detention of my highschool career today. i was late. and my book wasn't covered. and he let me out early. and i talked to marty. and then i went to CC. coolll and then marissa and meghans. and then. and then. i'm here. and my feet hurt. oooow. wore my bass shoes. THATS why.