no we won't let you in

Feeling: cursed
no we won't let you in you in you win you win i think. i am going to be a hermit before i die. why do these things always happen to me? and why do i care so much about them i believe in fate, if thats all i believe in. i really think i was born to die for something. not something heroic, like a law to be passed. to enlighten another person maybe; to slit both wrists and turn to legend, to make someone feel that never did feel, to make pass a law that means nothing but 2 to 3, to be a greater statistic, to set off alarms. not that i'm over the edge yet. but the bad things keep piling up. and i don't know what this is leading me to. this change in layout fits. its a road to nowhere. it suits me, and i hope you like it. nothing safe - best of the box. it's an appropriate name for a greatest hits album.
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Wow, I know how you feel...everything piling up and wondering what your next move could be. Its not a good place to be...but trust me eventually good shit will happen...I know its so hard to believe, but take me for example... I hit my lowest point ever on wednesday night, I wanted to die...kinda almost did in a way...then thursday, something happened...everything went good and for once I wasn't depressed. Keep believing and goodness will follow.
I know what you mean. Everything feels like it's spiraling downward and I can't control it and it's only getting worse...but I guess it never really gets worse...it always gets better just before it completely falls apart. I don't know anymore. Everything is confusing. I like your background.