todayy was weird. i don't know whether to be happyy, upset, or cunfused. i guess i'm leaning more towards the boundaryy of confusion. like alwayys. this boyy has probably gotten the silent messages i have been sending to his brain. he has finballyy stopped annoying me...byy holding myy hand in class and alwayys being near me. the fact is: i don't like him the wayy he likes me. he shall be myy friend, and nothing more. that's whyy i'm happy i saw myy crush for the past few weeks todayy. he was holding hands with an asian girl in the hallwayy. too bad that asian girl wasn't me. and he didn't sayy "hi" to me when i walked past him, like he has alwayys done. myy best friend, ellery, tells me that i should have done more than just smile from the sidelines. i guess that kinda upsets me. but what can i do?