frustration. she wants nothing to do with me. her new friends hate me. we weren't supposed to drift apart. does friendship reallyy fade awayy? after ten years? does it? oh well. nothing i can do. woke up at 730am todayy. fell asleep during the finals. but i can't change what has happened. i am horrible. horrible is getting old. eep! people are awesome. some people seem to be myy rock. to hold me down. preventing the current from sweeping me awayy. and it's weird. to me. to them. i don't even know these people. but there's comfort when they're around. even though we've never talked much. but i feel safe around these people. and it is just too weird. i'm glad they're there. thanksyouu. take heart, sweetheart, or i will take it from you. i'm lacking inspiration.