1124pm todayy = my mom's birthdayy. too bad i totallyy forgot about it...i didn't even get her anything. and i even got in another fight with her. again. it's always me doing something wrong. i'm not good enough. i am too good. it's always me. having myy mom scream in myy face has been like a dailyy ritual for her. her wayy of recharging herself, i guess. and i'm perfectlyy fine with it...when i think back to everything myy parents did to me in the past. psh, and elleryy thinks i'm sadistic for feeling that physical pain is worse than being emotionallyy hurt. ellery's stupid and doesn't know as much about me as he'd like to think. anywayy, enough of unhappyy stuff. myy moms birthdayy means that everyone else's birthdayy is coming up. besides me, of course. i'm always the odd one. being born in september and all. 0 days until myy mom's birthdayy. 4 days until myy dad's birthdayy. 5 days until myy sister's 13th birthdayy. 12 days until harry potter and the goblet of fire movie. 13 days until myy last marching band competition. (= 17 days until thanksgiving. 49 days until christmas. 55 days until the end of 2005.