(im addicted to this song) if I knew how to put into words how i feel, i would...but to be honest i cant. it can just be summed up to this: God do I ever love him! really! wow. ok, lets start this thing the right way, the usual way for me. MY WEEK! true its only been two days since i wrote last, but again, ive been busy. mhmm clearly. lol, ok, last night. Ashley's birthday. I worked 3-8, which was awesome. Brianna and I talked about the bar all night, cuz she was going too. She couldnt make up her mind as to what she was going to wear! hahaha, it was awesomely funny. Anywho, so i get home at 8, get changed and stufffffffff and then i walked over to Jordans. Me and him hung out in his basement (which was so nice!) and we played hockey. PS2 hockey. which i lost at horribly. BUT i did manage to score one goal, and you can bet your bottoms i celebrated at that! Screaming and dancing, the whole nine yards. lol, jordan was laughing pretty hard. At 10 or so we went to pick up Hartle from her and Brian's house, and then came back home to pick up Matt. I was wearing this red (or pink?) sparkly shirt, and i was leaving sparkles everywhere! lol, especially in the front seat of jordans car...he was "angry" lol. anywho, got to the bar for like 10:30 or so, and it was fun. It was so nice to hang out with the pet people again...its so long inbetween the times. I sat at a table with sean, jordan and matt, and sean and i began to drink while the other two watched, lol. we talked about the memories of the good old times at previous parties. By the time we got there, Ashley and Rose (both who had birthdays that we were celebrating) were drunk. According to Carol this morning at work, Jane (who lives next door to Ryan) was woken up in the wee hours of the morning by someone throwing up outside her house. Yep, it was Rose! lol. Chels got there at 11, which gave me a dancing partner wooo!! I was drinking a bunch, Purple Haze here i come! lol. we danced up a storm all night...with er...many different "dance partners" lol. My friend in the red...the two wiggers...and that guy in the light brown shirt who kept dancing with me! hahaha, and his gaint friend who was going after u chels! lol...yikes. but u saved me from the red guy, and i danced u away from the giant! a life for a life! ahahaha. i swear to god, if im ever single again and still in the bar scene, im wearing glittery shirts. ive never gotten that much attention from the males ever!!! HOLLLLY!! everybody slowly started going home, but Chels and i stayed till 2:30am. party. yea! i was tired by then, and i had to paint my room this morning, so i needed sleep. then there is today. ohhhhhhhhhhhhh today. sorry im in a happy mood...for once? yea! ok. so i painted all morning, then went to work. It was me, ash and stephen. Ashley was totally hung over...which meant it was mostly me doing all the work that night! lol. We had everything done so fast tho, ashley went home at 7, and I stayed till 8. Made a pizza for andy and I, as thats where i was going. got home, argued with the parentals. What other 18 year old in this world has a curfew of "leave at 12?" WTF! honestly, my sister who is 15 has the same curfew as me, what is this crap? man, i was so pissed by the time i got to andys, i told him i needed to kill something already. he let me destress/cry, and then showed his amazing side as always.he hugged me, loved me, and i talked how i felt so hopeless at this house. i said how i just want to pick up and move away, start fresh. he said the thoughts crossed his mind too. at one point i got cold, and we joked about how u could always tell u were in his house when u were frozen to the bone. him- thats one thing, if i ever move im getting air conditioning me- u guys are moving again? him- no no. me- you guys should move to transcona, that way ud be closer to me him- no, i meant if we get a place together, we're deffeintly getting air conditioning. haha, wow. i wish i could just move in to his house, im so much happier there. after i was calmed, we went and cooked our pizza, then just watched tv in the basement all night. i was "suggesting" to things, and he turned it down and i gave him this look and he goes "maybe im not in the mood?" which made me give him another look (come on, guys are always in the mood), and hes like "maybe id rather just spend some time with u" and he kissed me on the forehead. HOW FREAKEN CUTE IS THAT!! so we sat there, somewhat lieing somewhat sitting, with his arms wrapped around me, and his fingers intertwined in mine, the whole night. and he wont stop tickling me!!! ahh he gets such kicks outta it, i was almost bawling at times from it! honest :|. lol. and twice i caught him staring/smiling at me. ha ha! i love him to pieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeces!!! haha, oh yea! andy told me that for the week i was gone, his parents kept asking where i was! "they seriously just alternated days on asking, i think they did it just to piss me off. I told them both the day you left that you were gone for a week, and then everyday after that one of them would come up to me and ask 'where's pam?' and then dad comes up to me on sunday and goes 'where's pam?' and im like 'did you seriously not listen to me all this week?! shes in the states!!'. Haha, glad his family missed me! anyways, its now 2am. i just talked to Alena! ha, that makes me happy, i miss her and all the other st.vitalians. but i should be getting to bed, chels is coming over tomorrow. shes the first to see the color of my room! andy will be the first to see it completely finished, as hes coming over saturday night before jessica's bday. even tho my walls are all painted, i still need to paint the shelves, and other things, and put everything up. hmm, now that i think of it, i probably wont have it done by saturday. oh well! its a work in process. but im rambling, as usual. GOOD NITE!! or should i say good morning? haha, nonetheless LOVE YA TATA!! ...rather waste my time with you...