right now i am eating macaroni and cheese becca-zoe style: right out of the pan. right now i should be reading the old man and the sea. whatever. screw the old man. fishing is for lame-os. last night i went to marks party. hit it off with mark. i mean really hit it off. got dropped off at home at 2:30 in the morning by him and brett and shaylah. i dont know, im kind of worried as to where this is going. i dont know if i am the type of person that is able to have a relationship like that. i snuck out tonight to hang out with them again. it was nice. but im still unsure. right now...it feels like a turning point. things are different. i dont know what i want. i wish i did. i hate breaking hearts. the end.