being grounded isnt half bad. every school morning i lay in bed an extra 10 minutes and think about how much i want to stay home, listen to music and lay there in my bed. i love you bed. i love sitting on you, i love laying on you, i love sleeping in you. i cant wait until this weekend so i can do just that. i like being home. after living for 15 years, i feel as though i have discovered something. Nothing in this world is real. fancy homes, nice clothes, algebra 2, stuffed animals. none of it matters. all that matters are people. people matter. nothing else is real. not your halloween costume. not your drugs. not your internet drama. shaylah and brittany are real. and so am i. we are real together. i am glad i have such wonderful friends. i am quite close to finishing my charcoal self portrait. hailey came up to me today and said "you made it look good...not only because youre talanted, because youre pretty too." it made me smile. i think i have really ruined a part of my life by getting caught shoplifting. no more money+less trust=:( i love you death cab for cutie, you are amazing. "can you tell me why you have been so sad?" fin.