So i can only handle my own art as my background for about 3 days....hmmm yeah. byebye drawing of me in my undies. hello motion city soundtrack image. its weird because im feeling like ive undergone another major change in my life. I feel different...i can talk to people, and im definitely happier, theres drama but it doesnt affect me anymore, and ive totally stopped hating people all together. i dont know why i feel so different. maybe its because im happy and im never EVER happy. so being happy just feels unnatural...but great at the same time. and as long as i still keep on doing thing "a", everything will be a ok. im over critsizing myself for thing "a". It makes me happy, ill accept it and stick to it. and thing "b" as well. just kidding, there is no thing "b". I guess there is stuff that could be thing "b" but theres nothing really that important and specific. I think its because im just enjoying life more lately, letting myself laugh. people make me really happy. and im not talking about a boyfriend or anything. i dont need one of those, as a matter of fact, i dont even want one. wow, what is going on? I bought a new pair of jeans today. they look pretty good and they kind of look like diesels. hmmmm. I also got some new reebok classics thanks to laura. but who cares? oh yeah, me. the end. update: things dont matter to me anymore for some reason, im just taking them as they come. I dont even really care about clothes anymore which is weird...theyre just there. and i love music....but its just there. and thing "a" doesnt feel out of control but it feels good and i dont really have bad feelings about it...but some pretty ok ones. its not like it really matters anymore, its just something that i do.