I feel strange...cause...on the one hand I have another poem to put up...but on the other...I wrote it just before...I apparently...hung myself...I don't even know if it was an accident anymore...it's confusing...well wutever here it is it's elegantly named highschool(donevan) walking alone throbbing pain self mutilation alone in the rain tears we don't cry a single blade pain gets us high blood shines red smile in darkness talk to a friend she tells me to do things she lives in my head sit in a corner cant comprehend why though I'm just 15 I'm longing to die suicide attempt number 67 but when i die there is no heaven so i tie the noose i tie it tight wish my love a pleasant night suicide attempt number 68 kick the stool and anticipate cuts off circulation my breathing sharp i see my blood then only dark i think of you and remember the times you yelled at me and told me to die and so i thank you all for now you've won ruined my life and now its done. there it is...tell me what you think anyway-cassie xox edit://...my little sis is pissing me off...long story...so I'm sitting here now...with like strange dieing hair...I cut my hair now I have bangs...and it's like really short and I died my bangs pink and I died under my hair...pink...it looks so awesomely gothik I love it...I bought slipknot iowa yesterday...because...I had it and then it got stolen...by icky ex justin...oh well...I know why you blame me, I know why you plague me, I know why you blame yourself, I know why you plague yourself...:) this makes me happy...yesterday I did my english exam and then I went to the mall...with keena...we found mike....once I get my scanner working...I will change my background to our photo booth pictures...it's called nosepicker and lick'd yay...jeremy kissed me on the cheek cuz I gave him a smoke...mike hit on maddie...I haven't seen her in forever...godshe is so hot...:) lol...so I have to go to eastdale for summer school...and I'll get another photo i.d. card...whopee! lol...well....i'd post another poem...but my sister won't shutup...nehu c-ya bye-cassie xox