okay im at the library...and i cant figure out for the life of me why i feel so alone.i just dont feel like myself anymore...i feel like i did last september always afraid..everyone went back to the way they were the beginning of school last year...tezz...shandi...myself...its so strange its a deja vu of worse times for me and mine and i no longer have confidence in myself...nor do i have any faith in others...i cant believ i feel so...so...naieve and so utterly alone...i dont understand...