My father's banging the dishes around, I think he's trying to make a point. Pssht sif I care! Aaaaanyway. I think I've gone a bit nuts about guys and it is seriously driving me up the wall. Also, Bessie quit today! And thirdly, I really hope there's a slight, slight, SLIGHT chance that Alex comes tomorrow night, even though I'll need to be really drunk to approach him because I'm getting stupidly shy [as USUAL! stupid liking someone always makes me stupid. STUPID.] and that chance is really rather slim. He's Andy's friend, and Nadine is really busy with her homework at the moment so she might not even go, which means there's no reason for Andy to be there, which means there's no reason for Alex to be there cry cry cry. I should have just jumped him when I had the chance. Well I mean, I did, but I should have not pulled away. Fuck! Who knows, maybe I'll see him at NEXT or Bang or some shit... I know he goes there... oh my God, I am the fucking stupidest person on Earth, why do I even care. [Because I really really like this guy, fools!!]