i dont understand him at all. i was getting over him. i was over him. we were friends. just friends. and yet it didnt work out that way. i hungout with him friday. it was normal. talking. laughing. being silly. and then we went to the beach. he grabbed my hand and i didnt think anything of it. we walked down the beach holding hands. he wrapped his arms around me. i felt safe. he grabbed my hands again. we walked back holding hands. i loved it. drove around. he was touching my knee. holding hands. i loved it. went to his moms. gave him a high five (he wanted one.) gave him a hug (he wanted one.) he didnt want to let go. but i did. he made me lay next to him. talking. put his lips out. wanted me to kiss him. i wanted to but i told him no. i told him no three times. he kissed me. i didnt kiss him back. i wanted to. i finally gave up. i kissed him back. i loved it. i felt safe and comfortable. he went in for the kiss. i leaned back, i said no. i dont want to like him again. i finally gave up. and we made out. he threw me on top of him. made out for a half hour until his mom came home. we ran out. went to his car. i layed on his stomach. he kept kissing me, i forced myself backwards. i dont want to like him. he made me like him. and then he dropped me off cause he wanted to drink. i dont know why? i dont understand. im just his bitch. but i dont want to be. fuck him. i hate him. i like him. i dont want to. i like him. fuck guys. >:| i was over him! im not anymore. he said hes over me. were friends with benefits. fuck him. nononono.