i wish people wouldnt influence my ways of being. i hate it. every little word; it affects me. i truly miss you. and im sorry, that my friends came between the feelings i had for you. you were so sweet and you did nothing but care for me. i was such a jerk. im done listening. ive never talked bad about my friends boyfriends, so why do they like fucking things up for me? im never happy anymore, this smile is fake; i put on a show and apparently it works. im just sorry for everything. i miss you and thats all i can say.