Your socalled friend eh? Well all of my friends are assholes. Yes this weekend was going to be the 'guys weekend' at Kruz's, what ends up happening? They invite Shawna and Teffra,not me. Why not me? cuz they don't like me, they hate me being with John all the time. John and I are consider to be a 'whole' by them, and on Saturday they only want one half of the 'whole'. This weekend was suppose to be great. Its going to be a year for John and me on Sunday, whats going to end up happening, John is going to Kruz's on saturday at 12pm and going to stay the night. I'm going to be doing homework or something cuz they didn't invite me. Sunday, John promised me that he was going to be home by 10am so that we can spend the whole day together and do whatever we want. I seriously don't think thats going to happen. I hate my friends, they end up talking about me behind my back, and then the way I find out about it is from Shawna, and from what I know, Shawna doesn't like it when I'm with John because we don't spend that much time together anymore. So she tells me in a way like I'm not special or something. Our group of friends added more people including me in grade 9. It started with Greg, Kruz, John and Ryan. Greg went out with Teffra, Teffra was added. Me being best friends with Teffra, I was added. Me being friends with Shawna, she was added. You think I would be invited first or at least second, noppers I didn't find out about them inviting Shawna and Teffra until tonight. I'm so mad, I called John to talk, and I told him what happened and what I found out, he didn't even make me feel alittle bit better. I got so pissed off at that. Then we planned on doing something tonight, I can't go to his place till 7:30.. half way through the O.C so Im going to miss some while I walk to his place. He knows I wanted to see it tonight. Then his phone started to die, he didn't even borther to get off his ass and get another phone, all he said was "so you'll be over at 7:30?" "yes" "ok see you then. Love you, bye" that was it. That pissed me off even more. The funny thing is, I was having a great day, until Derek gave Ryan a razor blade and then they made jokes about cutting, I've been through a lot of friends that have done that, and I really hate when people talk about it. After that I got over that fact, but then Science came, and I have to do a project with Bobbie-jo which I don't have a problem with her or anything but she doesn't do that much work. I didn't understand what I was suppose to do at all, I still don't. And we don't have any more lab time to do it so I'll have to do all of it on the weekend. I swear if someone says something to me tonight about anything, I'm going to fukin scream in their face, I'm so not in a good mood. Am I hopeless with friends? I need answers! -jess