My day started off fine.. I guess. It's been raining all day.. and tonight it is suppose to snow. I lost my soccer game and for the past couple of days, I've been feeling jealous. I think it is that I'm noticing that one of my best friends is now spending less time with our group of friends, she is 'busy' with school, work, adam, baseball and her drama presentation. She no longer wants to be with our group of friends and is making it seem like it is our faults. And I'm feeling that my other best friend is now becoming better friends with her.. they are on the same baseball team. And from what I know from Teffra, she doesn't like her that much. Which I am finding weird. Then my other jealously problem.. I'm finding that my second best friend is flirting again with my boyfriend.. okay, I've been jealous with this before, but I'm thinking that it is different this time. Ok.. they have per. 1, 3, and 5(spare) together.. but today was weird.. John was feeling sick so he went home after 4th.. thats what he told me. So I go to the cafe at 2:30 before I left for soccer, and Carlie asked where John was..I said he told me he was going home after 4th. She said oh.. well he came in here with Shawna and then they left.. so I was like what the fuck.. he knew that I was going to the cafe at 2:30 Why did he leave if I was going there if he was going to end up staying at school.Okay, so tonight, I told John how I felt at that time.. and hes like so I let you down.. he didn't let me down, I just felt second best, I guess. So I some how have to make sure that we are okay tomorrow, cause right now I feel so bad.. I'm going to bed. Night