I have learnt a lot of things over the past couple of months, knowing when to keep my mouth closed, when not to complain about something, trying not to get over protective. And in a way, I think I may have learned that this is something that is gonna last awhile. John just left now, we spent the evening driving around; he took me to the bank to get money, went and rented 'the man' and 'yours, mine, ours' [both pretty good movies] and then we got food and brought it back to my place. We celebrated 18 months tonight. And no we did not have sex. So anyways, I thought that today wouldn't have gone so well. I mean it has been 5 years since that accident of John's ex girlfriend. I asked him tonight if he even thought about her today, and he said no. And I believe him, it has been awhile since we really talked about her, but since that fight we had the other day I know that he means it when he wants to be with me and when he says 'I love you' So I'm in this great mood right now, it's to bad that he had to go home early though. Looks like the rest of my night I'm going to talk to my ex.. maybe I should go to bed. --Jessica