I always do this! Why? I get so mad over little things that it makes the people I love hate me. I spent my night waiting to be alone with John for acouple minutes, and when that finaly happened, we were fighting. It lead to us almost breaking up. I have no one to talk to about this.. all my freinds are either sick of me talking about John or complaining about friends, John or family. John started saying that I'm not happy, I should be every happy; I have the perfect boyfriend, he does lots of stuff for me. He even gave me a promise ring and I never smile for no reason. I promised him that I will be happy. I am happy, I just don't show it all the time. Hopefully spring break will change things. I want to change to make him feel better. I love him. I'm going to bed, maybe I can sleep good tonight. Jessica