John just called me. I thought he was home, but no hes still at Kruz's. He went home and then his dad drove him back to Kruz's place, isn't that great! He said that Kruz is probably kicking them out soon so he'll probably go to Teffra's with Greg, expect Teffra isn't home and doesn't want us over till 6. So then he said he'll go home, have a shower, and then call me, to go to his place and then to Teffra's. Bull shit thats going to happen. I was soo happy when he called me, but then it came crashing down. That always happens to me. Why?! Fuk I hate you! Why are you my father, I hate your guts. I try talking to you nicely like you asked me too, and then you get mad at me for talking nicely. Yes Im mad that John hasn't called me yet. I miss him. And then you get mad cuz I don't have a job yet, I put in my resumes, I just haven't gotten a call back. Fuk, I don't know what else you want me to do. So, I did what you said, I called Toys R Us this afternoon and they said that they are still going through resumes. So I'll just wait another week or so. Its been 3 hours now since he called me, come on I think Kruz would have kicked you out now, Come home! I miss you, I want to talk to you, I want to see you. Be with you. I can't wait till 6 when I go to Teffra's. Finially John called me at 5:30. Now I'm going to Teffra's with out him, but he is going to be there in 30 minutes or so. So I think I can wait that long. Now I just have to wake my dad up so he can drive me there. Anyways, have a good night, I hope I will. -jess already my night gets ruined, by waking up my dad. Fuk him!