by faiith09
Listening to: *I/Ms*
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It was a Tuesday morning, and i had a test in school.I never got the time to really study so i wouldnt be surprised if i totally flunk this one.Im kinda worried that my grades are slipping, but I just dont seem to have much time.I come home,cook dinner,clean while alex gets a couple hours of playing or watching T.V, help alex with her homework, go to work, come home to Donna, and thats where all the drama starts.I just cant quit my job, its whats holding us up right now. I mean yeah im 16, i shouldnt have to pay all the bills and groceries, but i have to support my little sister.I still have to walk to work because i havent been able to save up for a car.My real father is a drug addict, he's in rehab right now.He has been for about 4 years now because he seems to find a way to get his drugs.My grnadparents live all the way on the other side of the U.S. and wont help us at all.So im stuck doing it all myself.Alex is the only reason why im here today.If it wasnt for her, i would have killed myself by now.
All i wear for school is long sleves and hoodies.I cant let anyone find out about me cutting,even though i think peopple jknwo by now.Its hard to hide things like that during gym class.Anyways Im making reakfast for Alex and I, when i call Alex down she doesnt answer me, which even if she's half asleep she will answer me.I think nothing of it and figure she didnt get enough sleep so i leave her alone for fifteen more mins.Then i walk upstairs to her room,she wasnt there so i calmy looked in the main bathroom,she wasnt there either.I called as i was looking, when i entered my bathroom she was there staring at my razor that i had left on the counter.Blood still on it from my last cut.She looked at me and asked what i was doing with that and is that why im always in the bathroom.I told her i ised it to cut um steak for the other night.She looked at me in a way i never saw before.She just said,"do you really think im that stupid, i watch t.v too ya kno". I knew what she meant by that, a couple weeks ago i watched a mvie on a girl who cut herself, and she caught about thirty mins of it. She just looked at me like she was disapointed on me and walked down stairs.
I followed her to the kitchen, she sat down ate her breakfast quietly and was slowly easing her way out of the door. I asked her if she wanted to take the bus or want me to drive her, and she just said,"tell me the truth, what was that for"? I wasnt going to tell her, so i lied, i said im telling you what it was for, what else do you think is sharp enough for that big old hunka meat.She smiled and fell for it thankfully.I drove us to school and dropped her off at the elementary as i pulled into the highschool parking lot. WHen i got to my Biology room i had a gut feeling right there that i wasnt going to do good today. I took the test and as class was over i was on my way out of the door when my teacher Mr.Smirk stopped me and asked if i had studied. i told him there was some family problems so i didnt get the time to. He just said oh ok i hope everyone is ok, and please study for the next test. I shook my head and walked out naturally.I couldnt lie twice in a day, i didnt like to lie period, i just dont see the meaning.If you know ur going to lie about it in the long run then dont do it in the first place,thats how i see it.
The rest of the day went fine,quick and decent.I got home and did my normal rutine,dinner,clean,etc.Well today my mom came home a little late so i had to wait for her to get home so she could watch Alex.I ended up being late for work, which didnt go by very well with my boss.When i got to work, he didnt even really notice me so i hoped he didnt notice i was late.Right before i left e stopped me and said one more day of you being late and im going to have to let you go, you know that.Which i understood, that was my 9th time being late in two and a half weeks.When i got home that night, something didnt seem right.Like it was to quite or too calm or something.I looked for ALex so i could tell her i was home.WHen i got to her room, she was sitting in the corner on her floor crying. I walked over to see what was wrong and when she looked at me she had a huge, swollen, black and blue eye. I just calmly asked,"mom?" she nodded and continued to cry.That was the last straw, i searched around the house for Donna.SHe was no where to be found, and she was lucky.Later that night Donna came home at around 11:30 and of course was very noisey and made it obvious that she was home. I walked to her looked her right in the eye, and said "if you ever lay a hand on ALex again, you will be so sorry" and walked away as she just stood there in shock. I went to go check on ALex to see if she fell asleep and as i was walking up the stairs an ashtray was flung at my head.I feel right where i stood as i saw blood surrounding my face. I looked up just a little, as far as i could, and saw Donna there with this phycotic look on her face. I closed my eyes wish the pain would stop and that Alex was ok.
I woke up on the bathroom floor, in so much pain i just couldnt take it.I couldnt move at all.It felt like my ribs where broken. I lifted my shirt a little, as i slowly pulled it up, more and more bruises,redmarks, scratches, open marks, just piled ontop one another. i looked at my legs and i had welts all over myself. My throat felt lie i was choked, and my face, well it basically felt like i fell face first into pavement. Donna must have taken all of her anger out on me while i was unconcious.I was in so much pain i couldnt cry let alone breath right. I was determined to go check on ALex as i crawled usuing only my arms. once i got to the hallway i just tryed my hardest to yell for Alex, it only came out as whispers. i just layed there hoping that ALex would come, fighting to keep my eyes open.All of a sudden i see Donna turn the corner, with the same exact look on her face as she comes toward me with the steal candle stick I had gotten her years ago.
There ya go:)
Always,
Charles