guess what, just wrote the hugest entry i've ever wrote. guess what? lost it again! so here we go, i'm gunna do it again. *sigh* >>>>>todayy i got my haircut finally but just a trim &some layering. it's cute. kinduh? >>>>eversince mel got the contra cd from nick for me i cant stop listening to it. only met the guy once but her brother is super cool &a great singer. he might possibly go to the show with us kids on friday. >>>speaking of the show. i was talking with skyy at midnight lastnight &he said he's gonna go. coming here after skool in thousand oaks just to spend some time with me. he doesn't even like shows lol. but he's a sweetheart. definetely the best boyfriend i ever had. ¢¾ >>jossshhh, i'm way sorry for yesturday. i never ever wanted to hurt you like i did. the reason why i do all this stuff thats supposedly "playing with yer mind" is cause i thought we were bestfriends? i love you. for being my bestfriend. tomorrah - after skool - me &you - talk about this &hang out like go to the park or something &look at the trees and the sky with not a worry in our heads ok? >ofcourse there's a depressing part! what were you thinking? today i thought i was getting over this whole mess. but i'm way too angry to be over it. i shouldnt be this angry. but how someone could tell you they love you after a week of being together then dump you after a month is beyond me! JURK. mel saw him today &acted all buddy doing their handshake. UHHHH.. thanks for making me see him, i didn't see him at first you know. >me &my mom are having some troubles too. we frustrate eachother tons. i want it to stop. she's the only parent i love. &me &my sister have been kindof distant. hopeing this will all get better. &i miss my brother =( told you it was long =/ i'm surprised if anyone read all of it. if you did, i love you¢¾. >editedit: just found out skyy is leaving for bootcamp in october cause he joined the marines. i'm gunna miss that kid tonsss. ouchy ouchy, this hurts. basically today fucking sucked hardcore. and honestly after all this shit happening to my heart lately.. i don't know if i can take it anymore. i am sooo sensitive. so fucking insecure. omg, someone, just, oh i dont know. do something. ahh!>