gah! all i have to say is it's so hard to trust people now. i trust people way too much.. &since i had trust in him to not mess with me, he did. now i'm just left with nothing. i was so in like with him&now i am just in hurt. i already knew i couldn't be with him but he just ahd to make it worse by messing with my mind. "crushes" really do suck, way hardcore. no more if this bullshit, i'm so OVER IT. i'm not going to even try anymore. if a guy likes me he's gotta show he wants me &actually try &i might give it a chance. i'm so over all this hurting. yesterday &the day before me &alycia have been doing nothing but walking. everywhere. lol we went to this one place in the middle of nowhere, found paintballs &threw them at a tire making art haha. it was fun. i can't even count how many times guys whistled out fo their car at us, urgh, guys are such assholes in orcutt. especially the punks here. then yesterday, me &alycia walked all the way to old orcutt for nothing.. we thought we were gonna hang out with a few people but they had to be, well, assholes like most guys. so we just jacked some candy from the market, sat &ate, then walked to her house. fuuuuunnnn! today we did tons of walking again with her boyfriend. tonss. ♥ i love my true friends.