Listening to: Papa Roach - Dead Cell
Feeling: better
Well, it's been such a tiring day. Not physically, but mentally.
After that last entry, i spent 2 hours in my room readin my book, trying to keep my mind off Jo.. Eventually I came back downstairs and my parents asked me what was wrong. I told them what I'd done, and how i felt and they gave me some good advice.
I went to work, and even thought i took my book, i couldn't stop thinking about Jo and about our relationship. I really do love her, and I want it to work soooo badly, but she doesn't tell me whats wrong. If i don't know how she's feeling then how am I supposed to know what to do? I suppose her talking to me will come in time, but in the mean time i've just got to be less clingy, give her the space she needs for herself, stop being selfish, there's 2 of us in this relationship. Just be there if she needs me, and not when she doesn't.
The advice my parents gave me was clarified by reading a MSN convo between my best mate (Ste) and Jo's best mate (Kacy). She said she knows whats wrong, as Jo tells her everything, and that i'm being too clingy, and talking to her too much about stuff she doesn't want to talk about. The idea of spending a weekend in has gone, but I don't mind, as this is a whole new start in the relationship for me. Give her the space she needs!
I'm going to see her tomorrow, i'm not going to pick her up from school like I would have normally, i shall leave her to go home on her own, and chill for a bit.. then I'll go over.. I might not even stay late, i might only go for a couple of hours, i'm actually considering not going at all.. but then again, would that be being too detached? It's hard for someone like me to judge things like this.
Just take is one day at a time, give her the space she needs, and stop going on about our relationship, it IS fine and she's told me that, i'm only putting more pressure on her by asking her all the time.. Give her the space, stop talking about the things that are bothering me, she doesn't need to know my problems when she's go enough of her own. Definately don't tell her about the new scope on the relationship, just put it into action, and she if she changes.
I'm going to have to put all this down on Post-it notes and stick them to my dashboard for reminders :P
You can do it Joe, believe in yourself.
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