dunno what to say tbh get home from work, a day filled with phone calls about people moaning coz of this and that little fuckin things... get to me nans, pick up the paper, and an old friends picture on the front page, along with a horrific car wreck pictured on the M6.... so basically i just lost a friend, someone i used to play footie with, grew up with him in a way, to you my friend, i hand over "the pemby cup" Rest In Peace Carl... http://www.lancashireeveningtelegraph.co.uk/display.var.756402.0.death_of_a_son_loved_by_everyone.php and a side note: to all you wankers on here, pissin and moaning all emo like coz of a bad hair fuckin day or some shit like that, id like to say a big FUCK YOU, im sure Vausey wishes that was the least of his problems tomorrow morning, unfortunately it isnt...

lo all so yeah i gots me a job, aint had much chance for anythin else these past few days its been great... its also an apprenticeship and great money for that, its an apprenticeship in Business Administration :D :D so yeah, and 11 days til i go on hols. works great craic, everyone there is great and im learning what to do etc etc, got to do loads of registration stuff tomorrow though, 4 months worth lol so should keep me occupied for a while instead of being sat there waiting for some stuff that needs filin etc so yeah nothin much goin on just thought id have a rant about moi new job and how great it is / happy i r with it :D :D tbh im gonna miss it when i go ireland lol, never thought id have heard myself say id miss somethin in england when i go ireland for 2 week -.- reet goin for a quick soak then i gtg bed lol early start

As many of you may know, recently Proof from D12 was shot dead, in typical rap style... fucked up shit, another fallen rapper... [Intro] Dawg....I shouldn't have left, They wouldn't have tried this shit if I was wit ya Maybe we would have picked another time Or chose anotha way Or maybe my prayers would have convinced him to choose another soul Shit, it's just me, mum and Tony now Man you look so peaceful right now... how can I argue wit that They say... [Chorus] They say the good die young, Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young) Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh) When god calls, you gotta go home (go home) They say the good die young, (die young) Thats why I know that we go' have fun, In this life cos you only get one When God calls for me, don't cry till I just went home [Kon Artis] It's true that everybody heard, there mama say every days like this When you see, one of your friends die in the mist In the struggle, went through circumstances Arrested every day just to prove a point to a friend Even then, accidents are prone to happen to any man A woman is dumb enough to pretend That her, god won't hold them accountable for sins If they commit, they try to repent the sense of Repent But I guess (thats just the way things go) I was blessed to see 24 (24) To wake up to that "Hi, my name is" video Motivated me to write what i wrote And I knew my little brother sold dope An mom and daddy want to move our road I did it, I still got a lot to prove and show I just which we aint have to lose Bugz to the struggle Cos you know... [Chorus] They say the good die young, Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young) Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh) When god calls, you gotta go home (go home) They say the good die young, (die young) Thats why I know that we go' have fun, In this life cos you only get one When God calls for me, don't cry till I just went home [Bizzare] I know you used to Bizzare on some silly shit But Niggas in my cliq, is dying quick In detroit, niggas don't party They pull a .44 out, snatch off bacardis Thats why I keep the pistol under the trunk Im 27 years old, too old to be gettin jumped And fuck rap, I miss Karnail Pitts, b-u-g-z Tattoed on my wrist Me and you in the jeep, listen to swing beats It's a shame me and Fuzz don't even speak I got married, my wife name is D Peace to 31 and 51-50, miss you [Kuniva] I came back on that tragic, my phone rung And Bizarres voice tellin me, Bugz was gone home It was like a knife piercing my chest and I couldn't breath I didn't wanna accept it, didn't wanna believe it I swear with this weight dawg, I cried so hard Literally, Denaun had to carry me to the car While I stand in this booth now it's tearin me apart But I had to let it out cos it was tearin at my heart Cos he died over somethin so petty and so small A human life is so very precious I hope ya'll Understand how I'm feelin cos I love you bugz I wanna rhyme wit you, laugh wit you, hug you bugz But I can't and you was so close to seein dreams A coward came along and took you away from the team So don't mistake this track, it's just another song This goes out to everyone who lost a loved one Cos you know [Chorus] They say the good die young, Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young) Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh) When god calls, you gotta go home (go home) They say the good die young, (die young) Thats why I know that we go' have fun, In this life cos you only get one When God calls for me, don't cry till I just went home [Proof] They say it's never too late, to have an early childhood If I could, turn back the hands of time, God should Forgive what i did as a kid to run blocks Now my dreams are just dream cops and gun shots The fun stops when your homies up in a box My dudey bole, rest his soul, snuffed by the cops I use to ?? a lot, if theres a guy by me say somethin If you love her so much why didn't u gave nothin When he took my homie, snuck was only in 11th grade Now I hope to see your face at the heaven gates It aint never late in the game, this hatin remains With a grudge to see slugs straight through my frame My heart aches with the pain, the life in his breath We gotta have fun now, theres only minutes left In the depth, distress young as a ??? did To get tats of my fallen homies, I aint got enough skin [Chorus] They say the good die young, Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young) Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh) When god calls, you gotta go home (go home) They say the good die young, (die young) Thats why I know that we go' have fun, In this life cos you only get one When God calls for me, don't cry till I just went home [Swifty] When I was younger I knew four brothers that wasn't wise That crash and the driver died, My partner on the passenger side was paralysed And Im surprised by the look of that ride that the other peeps survived Nine months later another one died Somebody shot him in the side when he was startin up his ride 3 years go by, I made a hell of a run And thats when funky got done, a joey playin wit guns And tookie over funds, karty was my man And reggy, I wish that I was wit you in that van And Bugz if it wasn't for you You know I wouldn't be standin in this booth, Thats the truth, I miss ya'll... [Chorus x2] They say the good die young, Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young) Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh) When god calls, you gotta go home (go home) They say the good die young, (die young) Thats why I know that we go' have fun, In this life cos you only get one When God calls for me, don't cry till I just went home

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine I keep my eyes wide open all the time. I keep the ends out for the tie that binds Because you're mine, I walk the line I find it very, very easy to be true I find myself alone when each day is through Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you Because you're mine, I walk the line As sure as night is dark and day is light I keep you on my mind both day and night And happiness I've known proves that it's right Because you're mine, I walk the line You've got a way to keep me on your side You give me cause for love that I can't hide For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide Because you're mine, I walk the line I keep a close watch on this heart of mine I keep my eyes wide open all the time. I keep the ends out for the tie that binds Because you're mine, I walk the line

ME = CONFIRMED FOR IRELAND IN MAY!!!!!!!!! "Steven Will YOu Be Returning To This Shit Heap Of A Country??" NAY LAD NEVER!!!

I WONT LET THIS BUILD UP INSIDE OF MEEEEEEEEEE!! god its good to listen to music music collection again, been listening to chilled back music recently mainly the pogues and alan jackson. so, im hopefully going back to ireland again this year, around May i thinks but my grandad wants to get the plane there and rent a car (getting old now and cant be assed driving all that way) but my nan doesnt think he'll get on a plane... tbh i cant see him getting on a plane either but meh so there is a kinda stalemate there... The O.C is pretty much the usual, marissa in a crisis, ryan gonna get in with another girl etc etc one tree hill... very good atm BUT it might be ending :*( warner brothers are merging with some gay company and they have to axe various shows from each network... however, finally 4 episodes start next week XD and it left off with Jimmy Edwards taking a gun into school, holding a few ppl up in the tutor centre, but not before he shot Peyton in the leg, she was bleeding bad and was taken away in an ambulance, but not before hiding in the library and kissin lucas o.0 anyways he turns the gun on himself in the end and keith couldnt stop him, anyways Dan walks in, picks the gun up and shoots keith, he's led there on the floor and its all over the net that this person who dies is keith... so they killed jimmy and keith what aload of crap >< anyways yeah still no job, aint heard back from BSM about the sales advisor position so im guessing i didnt get it =/ erm, what else, nothin much playing mir 3 now not mir 2, was looking back at the old photo's me nan has of like every time we went ireland, i can remember when each picture was taken also found loads of old ones of my grandparents lolol funny... tbh, i might not come back this time, i mean last time i was just finishing college waiting for my results hadnt started job hunting etc, but now ive had time to find a job and basically blackburn is wank, is violent and turns me into someone i dont wanna be, there is nowhere to hang out now, vies closed since i last was in ireland, i hardly see anyone anymore as a result of vies closing, and im saving up for holiday so i wont see anyone any time soon... so its best i just slip away :P so if i dont see you before i go on holiday and i do decide to stay twas nice to know u (i guess) erm, ill prolly see you in a few years when i decide i wanna come back, will deffo come back to see the family :P omg if i dont come back that means no download, lol doubt ill be goin anyways nice line up tho, metallica, arch enemy, stone sour meh well... i dont really wanna see wank bands like guns n roses anyways, but hate breed korn etc might be cool to see trivium and ooo lacuna coil (that girl is hawwwttt!!) ooo within temptation aswell, sharon den adel is gaggin for a ste-style raggin ;) erm, aint spoken to kacy for a bit, kinda over each other now, which is good i guess no hanigng on for nothin to happen etc... anywho moff to either sleep, watch movies, or decorate but i seriously cannot be assed... might mission up to me nans and read the irish post :P ooo ill go on the mayo news website aswell :D and bmibaby.com see what the prices are now :P

need to do a quiz on me :P so i thought id skank this, i aint been on Jo's diary or anyones for that matter in ages... Name- Ste Age- 19 Birthday- 1st February Nickname- Ste Eye color- Green Hair color- Brown Height- dunno lol *Wishes & Such Person you wish could fall in love with you - hmm, Natalie Portman Or Avril Lavigne One thing you want most - One Way Tickey To Knock Airport Thing you've wished for the most - I dont wish for anything anymore Do you believe in fairies? yeah, they go canal street in manchester they're also known as bum bashers, cock lovers and faggots. Or angels? yeah angels are hawt!! Lady angels i mean *Love Are you in love- no Have you ever been in love- no Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend- no thankfully If yes, do they treat you good - ... What's the first thing you notice of the opposite sex- face, boobs and attire Do you believe in love - nope, its a placebo people use to cover up the fact that they cannot handle lonliness so they say they're in love with someone so they have dependancy on their "other half" Or love at first sight- nope Ever had a one night stand - yes Ever fallen in love with a friend - nope Do you believe in true love - yeah, true love is like loving your family but thats different *Favorites Sport- footie, skateboarding, stuff like that Song- cant pick one Band- again cant pick, toss up between metallica, in flames, arch enemy and then theres the pogues Singer- James Hetfield Movie- hmm, im shit at deciding these sorta things Memory- Ireland, its the only thing worth remembering Actor- Nicolas Cage, John Travolta, Al Pacino or Arny! Actress- Angelina Jolie, Sarah Michelle Gellar, Natalie Portman (Senator Amidalla would get it!) Restaurant- dont do that shit Color- Red Place to hang out- Used to be vies, now i guess its either Bar Code or Cellar CD - Dont do CDs they're so 2004 :P MP3 FTW Number- dont really have one *CrEaTe If you could write a book, what would you name it- The Difference Between Insanity Perfect Sanity or My Holocaust What would be the plot- a serial killer who everyone thinks is completely insane, and it turns out everyone involved with him, police, detectives etc etc all have dark secrets which have driven them mad in one way or another... my holocaust would prolly be about a dream i once had which has stuck in my mind How many people would die- several, nothin beats a good blood bath... In My Holocaust i die, but there is an alternative ending where i dont :P Would it be sad or uplifting- both sad Do you write poetry- a bit :p check the rest of my diary If yes, what kind - depressing :P im creative when im down in my hole Do you write storys- yeah, for mir If yes, what kind- mir-stuff Can you draw- yeah Can you sing- a lil bit *Hobbies Do you play sports- used to be goalkeeper, but blew my knee out and never got back into it (thank you cyber space -.- ) Write- not by hand, type yeah Sing- when pissed, Act- yeah, i act like everything is ok when it isnt ;) Collect anything- yeah, items on mir :P i have a bad habit of keeping things, like footie anuals (prolly ebay them in 20 years for a fortune) sculpt- nope build- bases on games :p blend- do i looks like i blends things? other - drinking games :P *SeXy Are you a virgin- Yes xD If yes, are you waiting for marriage- na ill never get married If no, when did you lose your virginity- ;) Where did you lose it- floor Was it with someone you loveed? nope Someone you trust- considering she was cheating on me at the time, no Do you dress "sexy"- i dress like a lad, if thats sexy then yeah :P Do people think you dress "sexy"- prolly not unless they after whats underneath the attire :P Do you/will you use condoms or pills- yep, i aint getting tied down by a stupid mistake, which ill end up erasing ;) Hugs are great, sex can wait? ofc, as long as theres making out *Stereotypes Do you label people- yes Have you been labeled- does "fkin goff" and "fucki mosha" count? Do you like labels- ofc it seperates people What are you labeled as- dunno these days, i like the same music but dress more appropriately SP?) Are all blondes dumb- naa, some have been with me hohoho Do you like mexicans- FUCKIN MEXICANS GGRRRRR, actually katalina is mexican (from my name is earl) and she is fuxxxing hot!! so yeah Are you racist- not really, i tend to say "nigga" alot but its more "sup ma nigga," than "bail that cotton nigger" (notice the spelling) *FUN Are you a risk taker- sometimes If not, would you like to be- naa Truth or Dare- Dare, u dont want the truth... Are you the life of the party- sometimes, Do people think you're boring- some ppl i guess Summer or Winter- hmm, summer = fit birds with very little on, winter = coldness which is better than sweating ur nob off What's the most fun you've ever had- partying in ireland :P fine pussy over there man i swear to god woooo im like will smith over there like wooaaahhh im da party starter, not really but still fine pussy... Ever done drugs- im sure everyone has, caffine (SP?) is a drug, so is nicotine, alcohol etc Pills- nope, id slap the taste outta your mouth if u offered me one, or slipped one in my drink (actually id prolly murder u literally if u spiked me) and if u said "lol ste im on pills" id give u a good kicking... Ever drank alchohol- ofcourse Are you drug free- o.0 i dont have any drugs on me except a 4 pack of guiness If not, do you think you should be- Do you like to have fun- erm noo.. stupid question *Random Do you like these surveys- if im being crippled by sevre boredom Are you bored- very Is mine any good- the quiz? its ok, Do you need a life- a new one, YES PLEASE :D Should you be sleeping at this hour- ofcourse its 8am lol i been up all night Have you ever tried to count the stars- nope... stars are burning balls of fire and rock, they all burn out eventually, ironic how the same thing occurs here on earth :)

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us? Did it steal into our lives, or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war... Hoping for their safe return... But knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

as the title says :D nothin like a bit of drunkard soothing pain Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you’re never coming round Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I’m lying like a child in your arms Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I’ve got to get out and cry Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you’ll only hold me tight We’ll be holding on forever And we’ll only be making it right Cause we’ll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever’s gonna start tonight Forever’s gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I’m only falling apart There’s nothing I can do A total eclipse of the heart Once upon a time there was light in my life But now there’s only love in the dark Nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart Instrumental Turnaround bright eyes Turnaround bright eyes Turnaround, every now and then I know you’ll never be the boy you always wanted to be Turnaround, but every now and then I know you’ll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am Turnaround, every now and then I know there’s no one in the universe as magical and wondrous as you Turnaround, every now and then I know there’s nothing any better and there’s nothing I just wouldn’t do Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you’ll only hold me tight Well be holding on forever And we’ll only be making it right Cause we’ll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever’s gonna start tonight Forever’s gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I’m only falling apart Nothing I can do A total eclipse of the heart Once upon a time there was light in my life But now there’s only love in the dark Nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart

I'm really close tonight And I feel like I'm moving inside her Lying in the dark And i think I'm beginning to know her Let it go I'll be there when you call And whenever I fall at your feet Do let your tears rain down on me Whenever I touch your slow turning pain You're hiding from me now There's something in the way that you're talking Words don't sound right But I hear them all moving inside you go now I'll be there when you call And whenever I fall at your feet Do you let your tears rain down on me Whenever I touch your slow turning pain The finger of blame has turned upon itself And I'm more than willing to offer myself Do you want my presence or need my help no one knows where that might lead I fall The finger of blame has turned upon itself And I'm more than willing to offer myself Do you want my presence or need my help Who knows where that might lead I fall at your feet At your feet

Here's a 9/11 Tribute, brought a tear to my eye as i fair realised all these little children who are there every day standing by their door, waiting for parents or family members to come home but it aint gonna happen coz of them terrorist scummy bastards =/ N.F.N.F - never forgive, never forget... Little Girl: It's been a year daddy, I really really miss you. Mommy says you're safe now, in a beautiful place called heaven. Oh, I'm thinking about our younger years Little Girl: We had your favourite dinner tonight It was only you and me Little Girl: I ate it all up... We were young and wild and free Little Girl: ... Even though I don't like carrots Now nothing can take you away from me Little Girl:I learned how to swim this summer We've been down that road before Little Girl: I can even open my eyes That's over now Little Girl:when I'm under water Keep me comin back for more Little Girl: Can't you see me? Baby you're all that I want, when you're lying here in my arms, I'm finding it hard to believe ... we're in Heaven Little Girl: I started Kindergarten this year Love is all that I need, and I found it there in your heart, it isn't too hard to see we're in heaven Little Girl: I carry around a picture of us in my Blue's Clues Lunch Box Oh, once in your life you find someone Little Girl: You are the greatest Daddy Who will turn your world around, pick you up when your feeling down. Now nothing can change what you mean to me Little Girl: I can swing on the swing by myself ... There's a lot that I can say, just hold me now Little Girl: Even though I miss you pushing me Cuz our love will light the way Little Girl: Can't you see me? Baby your all that I want, when you're lying here in my arms, I'm finding it hard to believe, we're in Heaven Little Girl: I miss how you used to tickle me Love is all that I need Little Girl: Tickle my belly And I've found it there in your heart Little Girl: My belly hurts It isn't too hard to see we're in Heaven Little Girl: I try not to cry I've been waiting for so long, Little Girl: Mommy says it's okay For something to arrive, for love to come along Little Girl: I know you don't like it when I cry Now our dreams are coming true, through the good times and the bad Little Girl: Never wanted me to be sad I'll be standing there by you Little Girl: I try daddy but it hurts Baby you're all that I want Little Girl: Is it true you're not coming home When you're lying here in my arms Little Girl: Maybe some day I'm finding it hard to believe, we're in Heaven Little Girl: I can visit you in Heaven okay? Love is all that I need, and I found it there in your heart. It isn't too hard to see, we're in Heaven Little Girl: It's time for me to go to bed now oooo, ohh ohh Little Girl: I sleep with the light on. Just in case you come home, ooo oh oh Little Girl: and kiss me good-night. I love you so much. We're in heaven. Little Girl:I miss you Daddy

I never promised you a ray of light, I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday, I'll give you everything I have, the good, the bad. Why do you put me on a pedistal, I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below, So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there. One thing is clear, I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn't say so you wouldn't say so, if you were me And I, I just wanna love you, Oh oh I, I just wanna love you I always said that I would make mistakes, I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace, I fall as hard as I try So don't be blinded See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin, so pull me from that pedistal, I don't belong there. One thing is clear, I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn't say so you wouldn't say so, if you were me And I, I just wanna love you, Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

I LOST MY FUCKIN IRELAND TAPE >< i should give some of ma irish homies and ho3s a txt some time... hmm

I can be as ANGRY as I want to be Just watch me b.u.r.n I think you're way too cold Just watch and learn I'll never sleep here anymore My house is not my *home* I like you better dead And I'm better off alone Destiny, will you cure me? Trust, will you age with me? Hear me scream Destiny, will you cure me? Hear me scream as I face tomorrow Your vision may be in colour, but you look all pale In these times we should be learning, but with you I'll always fail Destiny, will you cure me? Trust, will you age with me? Hear me scream Destiny, will you cure me? Hear me scream as I face tomorrow I need to § /- / € myself before I DrowN It took so long to see The world your mind creates It pushes me under Destiny, will you cure me? Trust, will you age with me? Hear me scream Destiny, will you cure me? Hear me scream as I face tomorrow

ok, wow aint updated this in ages, basically i ran out of links to click on, on my firefox browser link bar thing... so hey, got denied a job recently (fkin mouldable noobs fuckin die and die now grrr) so yeah, erm basically been chillin on philipennes mir 2, i've discovered karma...well maybe not karma but a show about karma, yes MY NAME IS EARL is quality!!! just been watchin The O.C. n One Tree Hill, damn Sophia Bush is fkin smokin hot!! also speakin of smokin hot babes, the new Kaitlen Cooper is smokin aswell in the OC (she plays a 14 year old can i say that she smokin? lol) anywho she's like 17 or 18 wtf is it with Fox getting actors to play people younger than themselves? i mean Ben McKenzie, 27 now? plays a 17 yr old lmao, Adam Brody, 25 now, plays a 17 yr old lmao anywho enough of the rambling lol, btw Jeremy Kyle owns!! i mean he might aswell get a PurePwnage t-shirt and be like BOOM HEADSHOT!! everytime he owns someone, ah day time tivo is really fair decent :P hmm, was lookin @ past entries, both on here and general feelings i jotted down over the past couple of years, twas mainly about when i was going with Hannah, ah what a nice few weeks that was, god i really liked her back then now its the typical "what did i ever see in her" story (well with an added "well she is smokin and has a fine pair of titties") kinda scary lol i was really happy then lol, which is like even scarier coz i kinda aint felt like that since. for some reason it just felt right and i put my all into it, then to be shot down i guess it was like my last shot, i guess when we ended i felt like Mick Foley fallin 16 feet through the hell in a cell roof (wrestling reference) in a way its scary because it scares me that i might not feel like that again =/ it just aint there anymore, i mean im completely so totally over her (sry had to put the "so totally like durr" part in lol) guess its like, im not jumping into anythin unless its perfect for me kinda selfish i know but after so many broken relationships u gotta start lookin out for number 1. btw for the record, im not talkin about the whole kacy thing, i dunno what happened with that, guess i got caught up in the excitement of having a job lol, well i have another opportunity on the horizon, NLTG gonna try and get me an interview (woooo) back playing Final Fantasy 7 again ^_^ man pickin up where u left off over a year ago is hard :P i completely forgotten most of the buttons, where to go for this and that etc lol what id done and not done, and lookin through a 200 page guide on the net @ 2am is crappy. i really need to start checkin my emails on a regular basis again, recently its just become a number on my msn window, but i read through the emails, about a dozen were actual emails and not like spam crap, damn ppl get stressy when you dont reply to them within the minute (ok that was a reference to kacy :P ) been mainly up all night, sleepin all day, tis good for gaming no ppl around all the mobs are yours MUAHAHAHAHA hmm, also, watched 40 year old virgin (ty to Aaron for recommending it to me) fuckin quality filim!! tis hilarious honestly go out and BUY IT!! hmm downloaded corpse bride aswell, as a kid i fuckin loved nightmare before xmas (god i was a goth as a child =/ ) love the type of animation, but this is kinda crap, coulda been better, aint watched it all the way through yet just mainly watchin bits, like pickin up where i left off etc... ok so erm im gonna go read old entries tis always fun to look back and laugh at shit lol ill do that for 5 mins, then watch latest my name is earl episode, then go downstairs and watch home and away (missed it last night woke up @ 8pm lol ) ill prolly update this more often, even if its just rambling on bollox :P btw this jimmy eat world song was on one tree hill - quality laid back song, chillin song :P

was lookin around shareaza, found a few eddie tributes and there was this song on one of the tributes, never knew johnny cash did depressing stuff :P lyrics are good anyways, plus NIN done a cover of it :O I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

haha gone back to doin photoshop stuff, learning how to do stuff with brushes lol brushes rox!!

whats that say to anyone? its a town...meh... silly lil' country town in ireland...meh... so do i, but its where i crave to be =/ this is my first post since the death of EG, i thought i couldnt top his death by writing anything more, but recently i just cant stop thinking about ireland again >.< its driving me crazy its really funny coz i can tell u most of the shops in that photo... u see the pub "the west", red place... me, my cousin and her mates all stood outside that place after walking right down from the top for about 15 mins debating on whether we should or shouldnt go in, in the end we decided meh fk it cant be assed with it, looks dead... so we ventured back up to the top, and into O' Malley's... (O' Malleys in on the left hand side of the road so it aint in the pic obviously) u can see near the top of the street a black sign above a door, thats MJ Hennahans! at the top of the road is a big clock tower, and there is a pub adjasant to it called the clock tower :P if, say u were walkin up that road from the picture, turn left, and on the side of the road is Oscar's where i spend 3 nights of my holiday getting pissed and enjoying the fine totty!! if u take a right instead of a left at the top of the road u can go down to the bank (on your right hand side) or go to the supermarket (on your left) to the north west of the clock tower (from the pictures view) there is a chippy called Blue Thunder, serves luvly chips and a fantastic burger (perfect @ 2 am) there is a music shop on the left side of the pic, along with various merchandise shops and a cyber cafe on the right hand side of the road, that is on the same side as the sports shop where i got my lansdowne rugby top... which im currently wearing... that is the place i want to be, you may well say OMG its nothing like blackburn, well then case closed :P its not only that town centre tho, if u continue past the clock tower up that road, u hit the real country side, fields, ocean views, long windy roads which continue on to murrisk and eventually Louisborgh where my nan grew up... not far from Louisborgh is Old Head beach, fantastic place, has alot of fishermen there, but the best bit about Old Head is not just the view of the beach but the view of the legendary mountain Crough Patrick... there are soooo many photo's of that place in my nans photo album collection, along with other great pics of the fantastic scenery. id luv to be able to finish a long hard shift @ work, and go into westport and just sit back with a drink and listen to some randoms playin some irish music in a pub, or go for a nice sunday drive around the sea views... tis where i wanna be =/ and i guess the only real thing i've truly in my heart of hearts loved is that place, gay entry huh :P

Very upset over the untimely passing of a legend and a champion... Eduardo Guerrero. I'll never forget your Eddie, thanks for the years of entertainment and the great show on the 26th April 2005, when i saw you live in Birmingham you were nothing less than perfect :) thanks for the memories... Never Forget... Gonna Miss You Essa! Look After Him God, Else i Come Up And Frog Splash Your Ass!!

well, the new hair has attracted alot of attention, back to doin the things i was once best at....pullin :P gettin smooches with the optional booty call... tis a bit of a curse tho, ppl being all "oh cmon i really like u go out with meeeee" and tbh, i dont want a relationship atm, but then again i do, i just dont wanna be in a relationship bcoz i like someone. has to be special, so its like one of them long term relationships but it HAS to be perfect =/ so i guess u could say im lookin for mrs. right, yet i aint found her or come close to finding her. nevermind, all is good, get some dollar flowing and arranged for my aunty to take me out on saturday and sunday for driving lessons XD cant wait!!!! hopefully my LOTR box set will be here by saturday (hopefully tomorrow) one tree hill is back on and is good, The O.C returns tonight (thank you shitty baseball for causing a huge gap in my routine grrr) so hopefully i be downloading that tomorrow morning... vies... hmm, well i've enjoyed goin round town b4 hand for a few pints but then the money gets short so i gotta go there for the cheap booze :( sucks major ass... erm, what else, oooo fell out with chris giles coz i pulled a bird he apparently been after for like 15 year, but i know chris more than he knows himself and i know she's just the flavour of the week, however he blocked me and that was like 2-3 week ago, the ironic thing is he's done it to me a million times, he claims i knew that he liked this bitch but i honestly didnt... yet i've been like "omg i well like her" and he ends up pullin the girl i like yet i let it slide coz it falls under my "bro's before hoez" policy, nevermind fuck him if he wants to act like such a dick about it and wants to throw a 3-4 year friendship down the drain over it let him, i dont give a shit, i have plenty of mates... anyways yeah, more nights in / away from vies, and less time in vies coz its wank!! ill become one of those ppl that pops in now and again to say hi to mates and catch up etc :D so...hmm.. my to do list: 1. set everyone straight so i have a clean slate (e.g. tell these girls that are after a relationship with me that i aint after a relationship, or anythin more than a wee kiss, probably not even that as it might fuck my chances up with a potential mrs right, god knows ive done that in the past and regretted it bad) 2. chill back and sort stuff out 3. i dont think there is a number 3 lol nvm yep so this is kinda a update :D ciao!