Things are bad right now. Very bad. Worse than they have been for a long time. There are times when I just do not know what to do with myself. This makes me feel like such a teenager. lol Drama drama drama, it's inevitable. I've recently been taking up things I swore never to do. I've been over analyzing things again. It's like my mind is in a constant whirlwind. It seems as though...oh I don't know...I don't know anything anymore... this isn't good. I can't deal. I have to deal, but I can't. It makes me feel so hypocritical and weak, but what am I supposed to do? ....I can't.