....Honestly, I think I'm just doomed to be alone forever... I find that the more I hope that one day I'll meet that special guy, the more my hopes are defeated.. I'm still young. It's not that I'm in a hurry, It's just, here I am. Stuck in this little rivet, alone. When everyone else is out there enjoying the company of someone they love. Dating even getting married. Seeing your friend getting married, where realtionship wise you are still playing with barbies( or in my case throwing them in the nearest pond) is really degrading and stabbing at the hopes of..well...the hopes of being loved. It's me. ....Obviously. Ok. Ok. Let's go through this little self-pity ranting thing. Humor me. Me. I'm not gorgeous. I'm just kind of plane. Not hideous, I'll give myself that, but nothing special. (Hideous in comparisson to a run over,decaying toad) I'm not a nice person. I have very little sympathy for anyone and...apparently that's not a good trait. All in all, I'm a failure in life and I don't really care. This hasn't gone anywhere and most of what I typed is meaningless. I'm a complete introvert and I don't like talking to people. I hate using phones and I hate pizza. I love snakes and I love metal. I love music in general. I hate wallowing in self-pity, yet I do it all the time. I don't like most of my family and pasta is amazingly over-rated. I love softball and the yankees although I never watch baseball. I'm a complete loser,yet i'm comfortable with the way I am...yet I hate who I am. I can be extremely hypocritical and I'm convinced I have some sort of mental disorder. It could very well be hypocondria... I...hate seashells and I'm not a romantic person. The more I think about it, I hate the human race,men included. My heart has been broken several times, by people that didn't even know they had done anyhing. I let people walk all over me, yet I say that I don't take shit from anyone. I'm weak, but I will say otherwise. I hate people. I hate...I don't know. I don't really care. This has been a awesome example or narcisism. I hope you enjoyed.